Letting my love go

Part 21

(Our wedding day) Part 1 of 2

This time I didn't let RJ talk me into having a bachelor party, we had a dinner with family and friends, Patty and Kim came the day before, and my mom and her family are here staying with gran, RJ stayed with us hoping we'd have a party or something, he ended up going to a strip club after the family dinner.

This morning Sean saw him coming out of Patty's room, I told him he knows what he's getting into sleeping with Patty, I'm not going to worry about two grown people, today is our day. Sean asked me did I think maybe we should've stayed away from each other for the night, it's tradition for the couple not to be together on their wedding eve.

I told him there's nothing traditional about our relationship, so we'll be just fine, I only wish he would've given me some sex, bae said he meant what he said about that it's only been a week I can wait a few more hours, I said fine if he wants to be technical, and it will be longer than that after the wedding. I got out of bed butt ass naked.

Sasha! when did you take your underwear off, he said after I went to sleep, I know he doesn't like sleeping with anything on, I told him, and I felt him poking me trying to get me to give into him.

 Sean I'm not even thinking about sex, at least not until after we get through all of the wedding stuff, he said than why am I hard as a brick, and pre-cum in leaking from my dick head, I looked down and he's right. Okay I was hoping you'd join me in the shower if you saw how deprived I am, bae just laughed and told me to go and take a cold shower, or he'll call Patty in here that will make my dick go down. I just went into the bathroom, I heard the phone ringing I asked bae was it mine or his, he said it's his phone. I went back into the bathroom, I should beat my meat, so I can get through the day, but Sean will get some dick.

 I answered the call, its mom asking me how I'm feeling, mom you don't have to ask me that, if I didn't have HIV, you wouldn't be asking me that question.

 Sean Washington Delaney, me asking you how you're feeling has nothing to do with you having HIV, baby this is your first time getting married, I only asked that thinking maybe you were nervous that's all.

I'm sorry mom, and you're right I'm nervous and scared, I want this to be my first and only marriage, and it has nothing to do with me being positive no one knows when they'll die, mom told me don't think like that especially today, just pray and thank God I'm here. Mom said dad wants to talk to me, he got on the phone, hi dad, he asked me how I'm holding up, I told him I'm kind of scared and nervous.

Dad said that's normal all grooms go through that, once I see Sasha walking down the aisle all of that will go away. He does wish I would've stayed with them last night we could've talked, I laughed and told dad I know what to do on my wedding night, I've been doing it with Sasha for a while now. Dad said he wasn't talking about that, dad said he loves me, I heard mom say it too, I told him thanks for being my dad, I'm sure it wasn't easy finding out his only son is gay, and his worst fears happened to me getting HIV.

 Dad said it doesn't matter about my lifestyle he loves me and that's what a father does, I told dad I love him and just because I'm getting married doesn't mean I don't need him, he said I have Sasha now, but he's always here for me if I ever need to talk that goes for Sasha too, I told him speak of the devil Sasha just walked into the room, dad said tell him hi for him and he'll see us at the wedding, dad hung up.

Sasha said don't worry he's not going to ask for sex as he sat on the bed, babe put something on, I'll be honest with you I'm horny too. Bae smile and said we can do something about that, I got out of the bed and ran to my bathroom and locked the door behind me, I know Sasha.

Okay Sean be like that, but just know you're going to get it later, he said that's right much later now put something on so we can go down and have breakfast, the door came open I just stood in the middle of the room, Patty walked in and said boy please cover that thing up. I thought if she saw me butt ass naked, she would just close the door not her she sat on the bed, I got some shorts, and a tee-shirt I put them on, Patty said with my no drawers'' wearing ass, girl what do you want anyway.

You and Sean need to stop all this fucking and come downstairs, save that for later, anyway that woman won't let us eat until you two come down, why is she here anyway she doesn't even work on the weekends.

 Patty, for your information she volunteered to come today, and make us breakfast, she's going to leave after breakfast, we'll see her at the wedding, Patty said so now the hired help is invited to my wedding, and she couldn't bring a date, I told her Ms. Parker is like family now hush.

 She asked where Sean is, I told her he's in the bathroom, she walked over to the door and banged on it and hollered for Sean to beat off later she's hungry, bae opened the door and said as soon as she gets out of here he can get dressed, he heard what she said about Ms. Parker, she told him to hurry up she walked out of the room.

Sean closed the door behind her, and took his robe off, I got a good look at his ass for a slim dude bae is toned, I told him yeah put something on, he turned around and put his underwear on and a tee- shirt and walked towards the door, very funny Sean put something over all that dick and ass, he got some shorts and we went downstairs.

RJ, and Tiff are coming in the front door, I asked them where they have been, RJ said he went for a run, I should've gone with him, Tiff said she just got here, I told them we're about to have breakfast, Tiff told RJ he needs to take a shower first, he stinks. I told him he better come now, or there won't be any food left, Patty is hungry. RJ said he fed her last night and again this morning, Tiff told him we didn't need to hear that, we all went into the breakfast room and ate. Neither Sean nor I ate very much, I guess we're both nervous, what we didn't eat RJ did we took a walk on the grounds. I told bae I'm having my attorney change my will, everything was left to Dontae, now it goes to him, and this house too. I had his name put on the deed, bae said he had his changed a week ago, and I get everything he has, I hugged him and said all I want is him for a lifetime.

 Tiff came out and said gran wants me to call her, I kissed bae and told him I better see what gran wants, he and Tiff started talking, I went into the house RJ is still eating, damn dude you can put it away, Patty said she has something he can eat, Kim said she is trying to eat.

I went into the living room and called gran, she said it's my day again, and she knows Dontae wants this for me just as much as I do. I told her I know, and I feel him with me, gran asked me how's Sean is he nervous. I told her I think so, but he won't say it, she asked what about me, I told her I am too, but once we say our I do's I'll be fine, gran said she loves me and will see me later she knows I'm happy, she hung up.