Letting my love go

Part 8

(Sean, you need to tell him everything)

It's been a few days sense we buried our grandfather and his will was read, I gotten ten million dollars and ten percent of the company stock, I'd rather have gramps here with us. Robert said he got the same as I did, by the way happy birthday to me, I told him with all that's been going on I forgot, see this is all fucked up gramps always did something special for us on our birthday.

Robert said remember the time he took us to a strip club, he laughed and said that's when I came out to gramps, but that's why gramps took us there he thought I'd say something before we went in that place. I said damn I never knew gramps already knew about me.

 Sean, all of the family knew they were just waiting for you to say something, dude you never brought a female around, he said like I did, I told him the difference is I came out to gramps two years before he took us to that place. Cousin said it's funny both of gramps grandsons are gay, so much for us carrying on the Delaney name, I told him we still can have kids, he said speak for myself I know what's going on with him.

 Sean the test results said you're undetectable, you can live a normal life, he said only he can't have kids, I told him he can adopt if he really wants a kid, I did ask him when's he going to tell Sasha.

Rob, I'm scared we just got back together, and once I tell him he'll stop seeing me, and all the hurt will come back, not just for me but Sasha too, he's just now dealing with his late husband's death.

Sean, you don't know that he won't want to be bothered with you, if you really love him, you'll tell him what's going on with you, if he finds out any other way, he'll feel that you've been lying to him, please cousin tell him that's the chance you'll have to take.

Cousin I know you want to help me, either way I'm going to need your support, he said hasn't he always had my back we're more like brothers than cousins, I gave him a hug, I asked him what's his plans now that he has all that money, he said remember we can't get it until we're twenty five one more year and we can do what we want. I told him all I want is to be healed from this but sense I can't, I just want Sasha to want me no matter what, he said just tell him.

Rob asked me will I stay here in Savannah either way or go back to Cali, I told him I don't know yet, it depends on Sasha when I do tell him, he said for now let's just take a swim and cool off. I told him first I have to go over Sasha's place I left my bookbag there and my meds are in it, Rob said maybe I should tell him sense I'm going to be there, I told him I'll see him when I get back. Rob said he'll drive me over there, just in case I tell Sasha, we left and headed to Sasha's house.

(The truth comes out)

I got home and noticed Seans bag on the floor next to the dresser, I called him, his phone went to voice messenger, hey Sean just calling you don't know if you know it, but your bag is here, and are you coming over today, call me back.

I picked his bag up and it fell open, and some books and other stuff fell out, I started putting the stuff back into the bag and there was a bottle of pills, I looked at what they were, why did the name seem familiar to me. I got my phone and googled the meds, oh shit their meds for HIV, that's why the name of the meds seemed familiar to me, that's what was in the pamphlets' when I went through my HIV scare. So that's why he didn't want to have sex he has it.

I sat on the bed and tears went down my face, we finally got things going our way and now this, but why didn't he tell me he knows I love him; Sean came into the room he said Ms. Parker let him in, he asked me what's wrong.

I told him I'm just happy, he said I looked sad, am I sure I'm okay, I told him I'm fine I stood up and hugged him, he said he left his bookbag here, I told him I just found it, I called him and left a message that it was here. Sean said Robs downstairs he drove him over here, he'll go back to his house and get his car if I want company, I told him I do. I kissed Sean and he said he'll be back and walked out the room, it's going to be hard for me not to say what I found out, maybe when he comes back, he'll tell me.