Letting my love go

Part 22

(Our wedding day) Part 2 of 2

After talking with gran, I went upstairs to the other guestroom the one away from the other rooms I unlocked the door and I went in, I looked at the pic of Dontae on the table, well honey today is the day I start my life over again with Sean. Don't look at me that way, you said you were fine with me loving someone else, and I love him so much, don't get mad but our love is different from ours, we've been through so much together, and Sean needs me, and he really loves me.

Dontae's eyes changed on me, I know he's happy for me again, babe no one can take your place, you'll always have a special place in my heart, but my heart will belong to Sean now, so after today I'll have to put your picture away, and just talk to Sean about things, you understand.

I opened the door and Ms. Parker is standing there, she said she wondered why I kept this door locked now she knows, please Ms. Parker don't say anything to Sean about this, while we're gone you can clean this room out, I locked the door and gave her the key.

Okay, boss I won't say anything, I want you to start your marriage off right, but no more talking to a dead man, he said as of now he won't, Sean came up the backstairs, I walked away.

Sasha what are you and Ms. Parker up to, he said nothing he just told her to clean out a room I can use it for my studio to paint in, I said this room, I tried to go in the room it's locked. Sasha said Ms. Parker is going to find the key to that room it was a room Dontae used to read in, I said oh I thought he said it was a storage room. Bae said it is, after Dontae died, he started putting things in it.

Bae this is your house now, and I want you to be comfortable, if you want to use another room it's okay, Sean said no he can use that room we went to our room, bae said we should get dressed, he went into his closet and brought his clothes out, he said he'll get dressed in another room, Rob and Exstevan are on their way to get him his dad is sending a limo. I told him RJ is around here someplace and he's going to drive me to the church, I hope he's not someplace screwing Patty, Sean took his things and walked out of the room.

I went into the bathroom and shaved; I'm getting married, I saw Dontae's face in the mirror, babe you said you would let me go, please let me be happy again, I told you I love Sean, a voice said of course I do, I turned around and its RJ. He said someone is nervous in here talking to myself, I told him yeah, I am.

 I lathered my face, and asked RJ where has he been, he said he's been around, boy please tell me you haven't been with Patty, he said and what if he was, look my horny brother this is my day, I don't want any drama, you know how Patty is. RJ told me don't worry it won't be. We heard a voice say can anyone join this party, Shaun is standing behind RJ, I said both my brothers are here, but Shaun, I didn't think you would be back in the country until Friday.

 Sasha, I had to make it here for your wedding I know you'll be happy, you're lucky to have found two loves, some of us can't find one.

Why is it you don't have anyone Shaun, I'm curious, your young handsome and have plenty of money so what's up. He said it's about trust, I'm lucky enough to find people I can trust and not with me for what I have. I told him he'll find someone; RJ told me he's going to get dressed, Shaun said he'll get changed too, they walked out of the room, I want my brothers to be just as happy as I am, they both need someone special like I have.

I shaved and washed up, I went back into the bedroom and got dressed, there's a knock on the door, I know it's not Patty she'd just walk in, I opened the door I said hey sis, she came into the room she said I look so handsome my tie is a mess, I told her my hands were shaking. She straightens my tie for me. 

Sis, you look beautiful there's something I've been meaning to ask you, what happened to that guy you told me about, she said RJ happened, I asked her what he did other than being overprotective of her.

Sasha, RJ doesn't think I know what he and my guy friend were doing, he said don't tell him they were having sex, I said yes, I went to RJ's apartment, and I let myself in I saw RJ penetrating him, he even told RJ he loved him, I was so hurt.

 I'm sorry sis, RJ told me about a dude telling him he loved him, I had no idea it was your guy, sis said RJ is her brother and he's always been there for her, he just let her see what kind of guy she was dealing with. I told her still RJ hurt her too; does he even know she saw them. Sis said no and don't say anything to him, better it was RJ than some other dude, I hugged her, sis said she's alright let's get me married, RJ came back into the room and said don't tell him sis has me feeling a certain way I'm not going to cry am I.

I told him no, I put my jacket on and said let's head to the church I'm getting married, we met Shaun downstairs, Ms. parker said Sean already left, she'll lock up the house and see us at the church, we left and headed there. We got their gran met us at the door, she hugged me and said this had better be my last marriage, and she told RJ to find a nice girl and get married and give her some great grandchildren.

 RJ said Tiff can give her great grandchildren and so can I, gays can have kids too, marriage isn't for him, we went into the church, RJ and Shaun took me to a room, they both said better me than them, I told them one day they'll find someone and change their minds about marriage. RJ said he'll just have women until he gets tired of them and move on to the next person, I thought to myself is the next person a guy knowing what I knew about what he was doing with that guy sis liked.

Rob and Exstevan's came into the room he asked me am I ready, I told him you damn right I'm ready, Shaun said I am in a church, I looked up and said sorry, the music started playing, Rob said he better get in there, and we walked out and I saw Sean standing there with Rob by his side, as they guys walked down the aisle sis is standing on the side with Patty and Kim behind them.

 RJ and Shaun walked down the aisle, and this time mom walked me down the aisle, she told me to be happy as I got closer to Sean, he looked so handsome and he's going to be my husband, I took his hand. The minister prayed and asked who gives this couple to be married, Sean's parents said they do, and gran and Cece said they do too, the ceremony started.

After the minister said his words we said our vows, Sean went first, he took my hand and said his words to me I tried to hold back my tears, but I couldn't, Seans last words were, he was born to love in this lifetime and the next and he promises to love me for a lifetime.

 It was my turn, Sean I've been here before but it's not the same what I shared with someone else was special, and now I've been given a second chance at love again and I thank God every day that he's in my life, and I promise to love him and be there for him no matter what, today I give myself and my love to him.

The minister told do I take Sean to be my husband, I said I do, he told me to place the ring on his finger, RJ handed me the ring, the minister told me to repeat after him, with this ring I promise to love you and respect you as your husband, for richer or poorer for better or worse until death do us part.

It's Sean's turn, bae repeated what was told to him and he said I do, and he placed the ring on my finger and the minister said he now pronounces us married, I kissed Sean, and we walked down the aisle. Gran and everyone else congratulated us, my love for Sean is different from the way I loved Dontae, I'm not obsessed with Sean, and I think I'm really over Dontae.

 We went to Forsyth Park and took pictures but not in front of the fountain but all of the other statues and things there, we went to Sean's parents' house and had our reception, we ate and danced. Tomorrow, we leave for Paris, but tonight we make love in our own bed, and Sean is going to get a dick down from his husband.

Later we went home, we went up to our room, Sean said he'll shower, he went into his bathroom, I went down the hall, I tried to go into that room, but the door is locked I have to really let Dontae go it's my wedding night. I went back to our room and showered, after I finished, I got dried off and walked into the room, Sean had candles burning and playing music, I heard the words this is why I love you, we danced I held my husband tight. I love you so much Sean Washington Delaney Kincaid, bae said he loves me too and called me by my full name Sasha Kincaid Delaney, we kissed and made it to the bed and made love, this is why I love you because you loved me.

I thank God we can start things fresh; I'll always have a place in my heart for Dontae, but now my focus is with Sean, my husband, friend, and everything.