To Hold Tight or to Let Go

Chapter Seven

"Ready for the session?" Ohm asked as he sat on the couch in Arthit's living room. Arthit was sitting across from in in a chair with his leg and arms crossed. He seemed indifferent but Ohm couldn't gauge his emotions until they started to speak.

"Don't look so uninterested. You were the one that wanted home sessions too."

"I'm not uninterested. You just know that I get anxious when it's the day I visit my parents."

"Well it's a good thing we're meeting today. I don't want you to be anxious when you visit them."

"Fat chance of that," Arthit mumbled. "Anxiety can never seem to escape me when it comes to them."

"Okay then let's not focus on anxiety. Let's focus on something else. Like your weekend with Kongpob. You didn't call me yesterday so I figured things went smoothly."

Arthit scoffed. "I can't believe you left me alone with him."

"It didn't seem urgent that I stayed and you and him needed to deal with your past. So how did it go?"

"How did it go?" Arthit asked. "I'll tell you how it went. I had an episode in front of him because I was freaked the fuck out that I kissed him when he wasn't in his right mind. And then I yelled at him because he told me to calm down. You know how bad I hate that when I'm angry. But he was understanding as he always is. We talked about our breakup and about that damned asshole that's trying to make Kongpob his boyfriend and then we agreed to get to know each other again."

"That's amazing Arthit. You had a productive conversation with him even after your episode. I'm proud of you."

"Oh yeah," Arthit snapped his fingers. "I forgot one thing."

"What?"

"What did you call our conversation? Productive? Yeah well after that productive conversation, I fucked him."

Ohm's mouth fell open and the pen he was holding to write his notes fell to the floor.

"Ah...come again?" Ohm asked.

"I said I fucked him," Arthit stated a little bit firmer. "My meds made me drowsy after we spent the day playing games and watching a movie. And then for some reason I woke up in his arms feeling some type of way and he was there and that look he had on his face was something I remember all too well. Started off with kisses and a hand job then somehow, I'm deep inside of him and he's cumming all over his stomach." Arthit shrugged his shoulders.

Ohm cleared his throat. He and Arthit never talked about this kind of thing deeply as it wasn't necessary but seeing Arthit be open about it; Ohm wasn't going to shy away.

"And did you enjoy it? You do seem grumpier than usual today. Is that the reason? Was it not as good as you wanted it to be?"

Arthit made a clicking sound with his teeth. "It was perfect," he answered irritably. "Too fucking perfect if you ask me."

"So it felt good but for some reason you're grumpy about it?" Ohm asked.

"I'm not grumpy about the sex."

"Then what's the matter?"

"Ploy caught us. Well I guess she didn't really catch us. We were already dressed when she let herself in. And she's probably going to say something to my parents."

"Ah I see. I understand how that would make you frustrated."

Arthit shook his head. "That's not even what really bothers me. It was the face Kongpob made when he saw her."

"What face was that?"

"He was jealous," Arthit replied.

"Are you sure?"