To Hold Tight or to Let Go

Chapter Twelve

Kongpob and Arthit had already planned that they would spend the day on Saturday together so after therapy, Kongpob drove Arthit home and followed him up to his condo. Arthit sleepily stripped out of his clothes then climbed into bed.

"I know you're not tired but can you lay with me?" Arthit asked him.

"I was coming to lay with you regardless P," Kongpob said.

Arthit smiled and watched from the bed as Kongpob stripped down to just his underwear before grabbing another t-shirt and shorts he'd packed into a duffle bag.

"Have some water before laying down," Kongpob told him, grabbing a bottle of water from his bag and bringing it to Arthit.

Arthit drank it without questioning Kongpob then laid down. Kongpob clicked off the light and joined him in bed. The curtains were drawn so it wasn't so bright in the room but the sunlight was still able to filter through since the curtains were not blackout curtains.

When Kongpob got in the bed Arthit turned to him immediately, snuggling against his chest.

"Therapy was pretty rough today. But actually, it felt good once it was done. Usually after I'm finished a session I'm so drained and I feel useless. But today even though I'm drained, I feel so much lighter," Arthit spoke softly.

"I'm so happy I was there. To know you were carrying a burden like that; I would do anything to lift that burden from you."

"That's why I don't care about PDA anymore Kongpob. Because I knew denying you my love when you needed it or wanted it no matter where we were was a huge burden on top of you and I don't want to be a burden anymore. I want you to feel like you're in a normal relationship and don't have to hide every time we're out or feel like I'm keeping you as a dirty secret."

Kongpob kissed him gently, pecking at his lips until they were sucking on each other's tongues slowly. They kissed until Arthit's mouth slowed down and then he stopped kissing eventually as he succumbed to sleep. Kongpob continued to hold him, letting Arthit sleep against his chest. He closed his eyes for some time but he wasn't able to take a nap so he just laid there loving the comfort of having Arthit in his arms.

After thirty minutes, Kongpob's phone vibrated with a new message. When he checked it was his mother.

Mae: Anything to tell me? I've been waiting patiently and now my patience is no more.

Kongpob chuckled softly. He lifted his phone and took a selfie of Arthit snuggled against him. He sent her the photo.

Kongpob: Sorry I took so long to say anything mae. I didn't want you to scold me for not listening to you the first time around and I wanted to make sure everything was okay with me and P'Arthit first before I got your hopes up.

Mae: Oh my god is this for real?! Can I get my hopes up?!

Kongpob: Yeah, I think you can be excited about it.

Mae: And since he's the one that's knocked out sleeping I'm guessing you did all the ravishing this time, huh?

Kongpob: MAE! We did not do THAT! We just came home from therapy. He's really drained from his meds and from the session.

Instead of another text, his mother called him.

"He took you with him to see Ohm?" she asked softly.

"Yes, he asked me to come with him. Even though it drained him, today was perfect. He revealed things that I didn't even know bothered him. Things that I should have suspected but didn't think about. I'm glad I went with him today and I'm happy to go to future sessions with him."