Bully

54

"You did what, Y/n?!" Mai was freaking out while you 2 were alone in the gym before school starts.

You keep a straight face on. "I said Shiro and I are boyfriend and girlfriend now. I kissed 'im on our date."

The taller girl was at a loss for words. She stuttered and stumbled, until she could finally speak coherently. "You're out of your damn mind! You don't love him, don't even try to lie with those words!"

You shrug, not letting your emotions take over. Oh, how you wanted to scream and cry about making a huge mistake, but you didn't want her to know that. After what that setter did, or at least what you thought he did, you weren't going to change your mind so easily. "Who knows. Maybe feelins really can change." You start walking towards the main school building.

Mai stayed close to you. "That's bullshit and you know it! You've really lost your mind this time, Y/n!"

A certain group of 3 volleyball playing boys overheard your friend, walking over to you and her.

Osamu raised a brow. "Mai, what's the problem?"

She looked exasperated. "Good. You're here. Tell Y/n she's lost her goddamn mind!"

"Yer overreactin', Mai. I made a rational decision."

"No, you didn't! This is highly irrational! You literally weren't thinking while in a stable and rational mindset! You did this out of a petty, no good reason!"

Suna tipped his head to one side. "What happened?"

Shiro spotted you, immediately running over. "Y/n! Good morning!"

You smile at him. "Good morning, Shiro. How did you sleep? Was your practice good?"

He nods. "I slept great after last night! You don't have morning practice this week, right?"

"Yup."

Mai nearly screamed. "This wasn't;t rational! If everyone knew the reason behind it, this wouldn't have happened! I wouldn't be the only one talking you out of this! YOU DON'T LOVE HIM, Y/N!"

You glance at her. "Chill. Who said I didn't?"

She turned red with rage. "YOU DID! EVERY DAY FOR SEVERAL MONTHS!"

Suki appeared, concern written on her face. "What's wrong, Mai?"

Mai pointed an accusing finger at you. "This idiot went on one date with Shiro and is now dating him!"

Suki cheered, jumping into the air. "My ship sailed!"

Suna, Osamu, and Atsumu looked shocked. Atsumu felt his heart ache, feeling a wave of mixed emotions. None of them were good.

Osamu took a deep breath. "She did WHAT?!"

Shiro holds your hand, smiling brightly. "When she got home last night, I took her on a date. Now we're dating."

Atsumu glared at him. "No, yer not."

You scoff. "Why do ya care? Shouldn't ya be kissin' Kiku or somethin'?"

His eyes widened. "Kiss - wait! Ya saw that?!"

You nod. "Mhm. So now I'm datin' someone. Problem?"

"Yes! It's a misunderstandin'! She forced me into it! I didn't kiss 'er! I promise!" Atsumu had pleading eyes.

You turn away from him. "Let's go, Shiro." You walk away, but inside your heart believed what Atsumu said. You knew him so well, why would he lie to you. He took your firsts, then said he loves you. Why would he lie about that? But it was too late. You weren't gonna run back to him. Not any time soon, anyway.

***

At lunch, you get ready to leave your classroom.

Suki quickly grabs your arm. "Yer eatin' with Shiro, right?"

You nod, not looking at her. "We're eatin' with his team. I don't wanna eat with the volleyball boys anymore."

"Ah, well have a good lunch with yer boyfriend." She lets go of you.

You start walking out of the room. "Will do." You walk down the hall, stopping outside of your boyfriend's class.

Shiro steps out, smiling at you. "Hey. Ready for lunch?"

You nod. "Let's go."

You let him grab your hand, leading you through the halls. You felt sick the moment you stepped into the lunch room, wanting to run away and hide. But you let the boy beside you take you to the lunch table where his team was sitting. You 2 sit down, Shiro beginning to introduce you.

"This is L/n Y/n. She's my girlfriend now." He beamed with pride as he spoke, presenting you like a prized possession.

All his teammates began congratulating him, and introducing themselves to you. You couldn't remember any of their names or faces, hell, you didn't even wanna be there in the first place. You just forced a smile to remain on your face the whole time. You would occasionally talk when someone tried starting a conversation with you, but inside you felt like you didn't belong.

During a few minutes period when no one was talking to you, you looked over and saw Suna, Suki, Mai, Osamu, Atsumu, and Kiku sitting together. Your heart ached, seeing the unhappy face of Atsumu. You wanted to go over there and tell him you love him, to hug and kiss him. You wouldn't care if people saw. But you couldn't do that. Not now. You're someone else's girlfriend. You were the one that initiated it. You wanted this. You can't just go back.

You remembered the sight of Atsumu and Kiku kissing, feeling like someone stabbed a knife into your heart, and started twisting it. You couldn't look at the fake blond in the same way anymore. Not after seeing that the day after you gave Atsumu your virginity. Right now, you felt good knowing you didn't give him your heart before seeing that. If you had, maybe you would despise Atsumu. It might've made all this easier. Or maybe it would be harder to do all this. You have no clue what would've happened since you didn't tell him how you feel about him.

Instead he said he loves you. And you said nothing. But you say him kissing another girl. Can you really trust his confession?

Shiro looked at you. "Y/n? Are you ok?"

You snap out of your daze. "Yeah. Sorry, just had thoughts in my head. Sorry."

"You're good. Just wanted to make sure you were alright."

You realized it. The one truth about everything in this moment.

You love Atsumu.