Jeongyeon x fem reader (+Sahyo)

Chapter 2

We didn't return home until late afternoon, in the company of Daniel, who had joined us an hour earlier, at around five o'clock.

Daniel : "I got off work this afternoon so I could come early."

He took Jihyo's hands between his as she smiled, all under Sana's broken gaze.

Jihyo : "That's nice, I'm glad to see you again, it's been a long time."

He nodded.

Daniel : "I'm glad too."

They looked at each other, smiling, before Jihyo pulled him towards her room. I then put my arm around Sana's shoulders and spoke to her in a low voice.

Y/n : "Go and wash up, it'll take your mind off things."

She nodded sadly before walking away. I sighed before taking a cereal bar to last me until lunchtime, and going to sit on the sofa. I tended to let the others wash up before me, since we were all always in a hurry to get going after a workout. And Jeongyeon had started doing the same after gaining weight. Since then, nobody had seen her naked, or even in her underwear. We used to have no problem being naked in front of others, but Jeongyeon had lost too much confidence in her body for that now. So she always tried to wash herself last.

To keep myself busy, I started looking at what was being said about me on the Internet. As is often the case, fans just kept complimenting my muscularity, even if there were always others to criticize. Indeed, I was known among the members of Twice, and even among most of the Idols, for being the most muscular (If that's not your case, know that it's not mine either. I was just looking for a feature that might make Y/n a little less commonplace). Some people had fun saying that I'd never find a man because of that, and so much the better, since even if only my sister, my mother, Sana and Tzuyu knew it, I was a lesbian (I'm sorry if that's not your real sexual orientation). And more to the point, I was completely under Jeongyeon's spell.

As soon as I could, I went to wash up, then joined the girls for dinner. Today, it was Dahyun's turn to prepare the meal.

Dahyun : "I hope it's good."

Chaeyoung : "No, it's really bad."

Dahyun : "Then don't eat it."

We laughed at Dahyun's answer.

Momo : "That's good Dahyun, defends yourself."

I smiled when I saw how Mina just looked lovingly at Chaeyoung. Even though all ten of us lived together and were extremely close to each other, it wouldn't have surprised me to learn that they were in a relationship but were hiding it. In fact, I hoped they were. These two have a complicity and trust that they couldn't find anywhere else. But thinking about it made me realize something. If by some miracle something were to happen between me and Jeongyeon, we'd either have to make the decision to hide from everyone, or only tell the girls. And that could prove very risky. I already knew that Dahyun was against homosexuality, and I had no idea about Momo and Jihyo.

After lunch, when most of the girls were in the living room, I went to see Sana, who had stayed in her room. As there were two of us per room, if one of us wanted to be alone, the other would go into the living room or into someone else's room to talk. But most of us automatically ended up in the living room. At least the more extroverted of us were there every time. But not Sana. Not today, and that wasn't normal. The only time she wasn't with the others was when she was feeling really down. So I knocked on her bedroom door and quietly entered. She was lying in bed, hugging her legs to her chest.

Y/n : "Hey...Sana."

I sat on her bed and stroked her back. She quickly straightened up and hugged me, burying her face in my neck. I hugged her back, continuing to stroke her back.

Sana : "I can't take it anymore Y/n...Why doesn't she notice all the love I could give her? Why doesn't she want it? Why?"

I stepped back, as Sana looked at me with teary eyes.

Sana : "I love her more than anyone. I do everything I can to make her feel good when she's with me. I've tried everything. But she doesn't love me...She doesn't love me and she never will. Because she can't."

A tear slid quickly down her cheek, which she didn't give me time to wipe away.

Sana : "She's straight Y/n. No matter what you told me about there being signs that she might not be, she is. She's not able to love me Y/n."

Y/n : "I'm really sorry Sana. I thought there was a chance. I already tried to get Jihyo to notice you, but she didn't...I'm sorry..."

She looked me straight in the eye before bursting into tears. She clung tightly to me as she breathed hard while crying her eyes out. It hurt me terribly to see her like that. And yet, the one who was suffering the most here was her.

Sana : "What have I done to deserve this, Y/n? What have I done?"

Y/n : "Sana...If we always got what we deserved, the whole world would be yours. Unfortunately, life isn't fair. Even if you love someone with all your heart, if you love them more than anyone else, if you could treat them like no one else could, sometimes that's not enough. Because feelings can't be controlled. I really wish that were the case, for me as well as for you. You and Jihyo would be so good together. I hope that somehow, someday, things will change. But even if they don't, you can't blame yourself for that, Sana. Because you're not the problem. Never forget that."

Sana : "If you only knew how much it hurts."

Y/n : "I hope I never know such pain...Although I might."

She stepped back and wiped away her tears.

Sana : "When are you going to listen to me Y/n? I'm sure Jeongyeon loves you."

Y/n : "I don't think so."

She sighed.

Sana : "You're one of the most popular ships. Don't you think there's a reason? You and Jeongyeon get along wonderfully and spend a lot of time together."

Y/n : "That doesn't mean anything. You, for example, have already kissed her twice."

Sana : "Those were accidents, Y/n."

Y/n : "I know, but I'm saying this to show you that just because something happens doesn't necessarily mean Jeongyeon likes the person. Especially since she and I never kissed accidentally. I'm so jealous. It must be so nice to kiss her."

I thought back to the dream I'd had. And finally, no, it must not have been nice to kiss her, it must have been wonderful.

Sana : "Don't worry. We've got two concerts in the city next week. I'm sure with a little effort and thought, you could 'accidentally' kiss her."

Y/n : "I've thought about it but...I think it's a horrible thing to do."

Sana : "At least her reaction might give you a clue as to how she feels about you. Besides, if she's always perfectly fine when she and I have kissed twice, she should be able to handle it happening just once with you."

Y/n : "I don't know...I'll think about it."

We looked at each other surprised and a little uncomfortable, when we heard suspicious noises coming from the room next door. And if I'd managed to lift Sana's spirits slightly, all my efforts had just been undone.