God and I

Mind Of My Own

Lord save me I cannot be still
My mind is a battlefield
Fighting itself
Strategies and maps charted
Against no one
Exhausting my mind
Tormenting my spirit
I feel my body failing
As strength abandons me
What a lonely thing
To die slowly while one is alive

Drifting to and from
Going nowhere
I lost my sight a while ago
No vision or hope for the future
Everything is black
So I fight another day
To make it out alive
Days turned into weeks turned
Into months
Months into years
It's all the same

Peace of mind
To hear nothing but silence
I pray for this
A soldier needs rest
I move restlessly across
The earth
Heading nowhere
Loving no one
Hating nothing
Listening to myself and I
Forever in conflict
Arguing over
what could have been
Had I not done this...
What should have been
Had I done that....
Contemplating on
What to do next...

So I ask
To silence my thoughts
As I grow restless
To calm my storms
As I become weary
To give me purpose
As I lose sight
For I it is a horrific pain
To lose one's mind
When one is sane