God and I

Eternally Yours

I struggle to keep composure
For in me pride is lost.
You replaced it with your righteousness
You saved my dying spirit
For that I am eternally yours

I fell so low tested by
the Prince of Darkness
Never did I recognize
any spiritual attack.
I went on as if all was well
Till all came to light and
I saw I was lost .

True loneliness comes from
Being separated from You
I needed salvation but my Saviour
I could not find.
I prayed I cried for the God of my
Childhood.
The Lord who moves mountains
And conquered the grave.
I could not find Him.
Within me I was dying
Externally I was suicidal.

You took pity on me
You called me out of the darkness
You renewed my fire
You showed me my sins.
Yes I am a sinner and in
My admission was my salvation
I could not find You for
I had lost Your ways
Yet You loved me still.
You gave me Your peace
And I no longer fear my thoughts
For my mind is silent.
You gave me Your love
I no longer hate myself
For I know to You I am everything
And that is enough.

I know the enemy is watching
Day and night
An apex predator waiting
To go in for the kill
But I know if You wanted me
Devoured would not be
Here to day.
So I cry when I think of You
How you saved my soul from death
My mind from exhaustion
For a spirit which is not well
Renders life purposeless
Walk without purpose
Is walking into abyss
You gave me hope
No You gave me more
You gave me life
And what a blessing to feel alive.