God and I

Enough

He swore by His name
He is all I need
With the break of dawn
He proves
His eyes are on me
Watching out
Protecting I
From creatures
Of the night
And holds steadfast
Providing
Throughout the day
For my sanity's sake
He gives me
Peace of mind

Yet I fracture it
Depending on others
Keep my hope
In that of humans
Place my dreams
In the hands
Of people
See a new world
In the eyes
Of others
Only to have
My spirit dismayed

You would think
I have learned
I have not
A repeat offender
I trouble
My soul
My very own
Worst enemy
Declaring wars
On my mind
For I trust
Another like me
And not
The Lord.
I know Him
I have felt His love
Witnessed His works
Testified His existence.
But why,
Why can't He be enough?
Why do faithless
My dear fickle soul