Blame It On Love

Chapter 21

Ananta's POV:

We entered the room to check Adhiraj's belongings. We might get some clues as to where he has gone. But when I checked the room his luggage was already gone. I tried to think if I saw it when I removed my clothes from the bag. Then I realised, that his bag was missing since I came into the room last night. It meant that he had planned all this ahead of time. A dreading feeling settled in the pit of my stomach. This was not something small. It was far from over with just one night of absence. It was something really big. He was not just having a rebellion phase. It was as if he was fed up and was leaving.

I told mom everything that I was thinking. But she didn't take my concern seriously.

"Wait till we reach home. I will pull Adhiraj's ears." Mom said. I rolled my eyes at her but kept my mouth shut wisely. 'Let her learn about this fact on her own.' I thought.

As we returned home after one day of the wedding, we noticed that all the belongings of Adhiraj were missing. I checked entire house but there was no sign that he lived here. Then we found an envelope on his bed. It read.....

Dear Mom,

I kept my word and married Ananta as you dearly wished. You couldn't accept anyone else as your daughter in law and I accepted that. I tried to fulfill all my responsibilities as the only child but it was never enough for you. I loved you with all my heart.

But in the last few months I have hated you. I tried everything to make you understand my feelings. But you were stubborn. You never listen to anything I said. You never understood what I was going through. And the worst part is you didn't want to understand me.

But now I don't have the energy to hate you or to fulfill your wishes. I lost everything dear to me when I lost Aadhya. I know if I stay with you, you will want me to give a try to my marriage. Then you expect more and more and more after every passing day. But you will never understand that I am tired.

I am tired of fulfilling your wishes. I am tired of smiling when I didn't feel like. I am tired of being a perfect son that you want me to be. And I hate you for making me feel this way. But then again I am tired of hating you also.

And to not increase this hate in my heart I am leaving. I want to cherish the beautiful days I spent with you. So please let me go. Car away from all the responsibility you want to burden me with. If you want me to be happy please don't try to contact me or find me.

Ananta, I don't have any hard feelings for you. I will fulfill your father's last wish and take care of you. I will keep sending money in your account every month. I hope you can forgive me for taking such a drastic step. And I hope you can understand where I am coming from.

Your,
Adhiraj.

I sat on the bed defeated. It was all my fault. I was the one who was responsible for all this.

Two months later............

It had been two months since Adhiraj left. I would have called him missing if he didn't leave us with a hand written letter.

I knew the pain Adhiraj must have went through while writing this letter. There were marks of tears on the letter. I gave the letter to mom. In these last two months I saw her missing him more than ever. She would sit on the armchair hugging his letter. I told her to try and find Adhiraj but she refused, stubbornly. I didn't want to be the cause of drift between a mother and son.

On the other hand, I was happy that atleast Adhiraj was not angry on me. Still I wanted to clear everything with him. So I tried to search where he was living but was unable to find it.