Evita♡ (By FlowerGirl231109)

Love inside of you (30/08/2024)

I know, i know. My stories, chapters. Wathever you want to call them. Aren't good enough for most people to read, or even take an interest in. Not everyone, will be interested in your problems, your life. there mostly busy with themselves, with their ego and how others see them. But does that matter? That noene is reading this? No.

These are just drafts. Just a few little dairies, and yes. I don't know English that well. My first language isn't English. I am not a born writer. but i could be? Right? since when do we need anyones approval to be worth it? To be good enough.

We see competitions, of sports, baking, art.. A lot of things. There is always a competition in life. Always something we need to be better at then others. People who always win, think there the best. When the're insecure and have a low self-esteem. People wo lose, think they aren't good enough. when they have the power in them, to be good enough for themselves. 

Im not saying, that people who win don't deserve it. Im also not saying that people who lose will never win. Im just a kid after all, i don't know the cruelty of life yet. Even though it feels like i've been through all of it already. A competition such as that. Is the same thing, about how we feel in daily life. 

I, compare myself to other peoples lives. I think that they are happy. That there life is with zero problems. Most of the time those kids who i don't like. They bully me because they have their own problems with themslevs. they vape, because of stress. they smoke, because of stress. they do all kinds of thing, because of there own problems. Why bring me into that? When I atleast work on myself. When I help myself, comfert myself every day. 

Im not going to say, that i am more worth it then they are. If i think that, then i am no better then them. We are all worth it. We don't need to compare, or be jeleous of the other. Just because of our own insecurities. 

We should work on ourselves, love ourselves. That takes time, believe me i know. Im still in that tunnel, going thru that journey. I don't know how long i will be stuck here. In being scared of me, that im going to destroy myself one day. But wathever happens, it's not for today. It's not the end for me yet. Im going to keep going, no matter what. 

You don't read my stories. -You do you.

You don't like me? -You do you.

You don't love me? -You do you

You hate me? -You do you

You talk bad behind my back about me? -You. do. you.

Im me, and your You.

Nothing is ever going to change that, i have my life, you have yours. The most biggest supporter is you. Everyone sees you in a different way. you decide who you are, what you can do. 

Are you worth it? (Am i worth it?)

You decide.

You. do. You.

and i'll do it. 

-Alright love?

Alright.