Everything I Don't Deserve/Post Malone

•thirty•

It was sunrise before we actually curled up in bed and fell asleep, twice in the past week I have watched the sun come up with this man. Everything about it is absolutely worth it though.

The album... it's more than I could ever have expected. I didn't know anything about what he had done in the studio before our last trip. The only other times I had been to Nashville with him was shadowing Cathy at events and awards shows. That side of his music was almost a completely different job from what our interactions were before now. I'm star struck by the amount of artists that believe in him just as much as I do. I may have cried a few tears last night I was so damn proud of him.

We laid in bed and listened, smoking and cuddling, there might have even been some dancing... I loved it all. Every song. I'm pretty sure we listened to it at least 3 times and several of my favorites repeatedly. I'm so excited for this jump, not only because he's so incredible at this genre, but.. for my own selfish reason. I'm going to be responsible for making sure my very own sexy cowboy Austin lives up to my sexy cowboy dreams. I really really love my job.

When we parked in St Louis Austin was still wide open and I was running on fumes. Thankfully the second I got him still and quiet he immediately passed out cold and we could finally get some sleep. I love this man, but his energy levels are something I cannot hang with.

I currently have no idea what time it is, and honestly I don't care. Which is crazy for me but luckily the only thing on my plate for today is getting him on stage and reuniting with Edie. I've missed her and I can't wait to have a show with her. It's been way too long. Plus, I'm happy she's getting to see Ben, I would be a wreck, and I'm NOT looking forward to his Vegas trip and my girls trip. Well, that's a lie because I am definitely ready to relax on that boat for a week but I'm gonna miss Austin so much.

We were tangled up together in bed, I didn't dare move even though I had tried to fall back asleep several times without success, but I didn't want to wake Austin. He needs his sleep more than anyone else I know and he's so damn warm and snuggly right now, I could stay here with my cheek on his shoulder and his arm around me with his hand resting on my ass for the rest of the day and be more than happy. He was flat on his back, with me plastered to his side, my arm across his chest and his knee firmly between my thighs. My eyes fluttered closed again hoping I could drift past the semi awake haze I was in and actually get a little more sleep before someone came looking for Austin.

I'm not sure if I fell asleep or not but the next thing I knew Austin's phone was ringing. He grumbled and groaned and felt around on the side table until he found it and tapped to answer the call with the tip of his nose instead of removing his hand from my ass. I laughed softly as he gave me a sleepy grin and kneaded my cheek in his hand.

"Morning Ben... that's still morning for me. Yeah... see you in a bit." He said, that killer morning voice making me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

He put his phone back on the table and rolled, wiggling down slightly in the bed so we nose to nose he kissed the tip of mine and I giggled, wrapping my arm around his chest and letting out a content sigh.

"Morning darlin.." he said softly, kissing me just as soft.

"Good morning sweetheart." I said running my nails up and down his back as he wiggled in my arms.

"It's cute when you call me that." He grinned. "This is how we need to wake up every morning. No more schedule." He said as he dropped his head into my neck and started placing lazy kisses there.

"I wish baby, I have things I should have been working on this morning but I put them off. I do need to call the store later, make sure my deliveries got there today. I have the fabric for your Gala outfit coming. But I do have quite a few slow days here at the end of the tour. I can shuffle the schedule at least." I said "Ben need you?"