Everything I Don't Deserve/Post Malone

•thirteen•

Edie picked up on the third ring as I stood in the bathroom of the room I had stayed in the night of the party. I was running a flat iron through my hair, smoothing it down.

"How things in at the Love Shack bayyybeeee!" Edie sang and giggled as she answered.

"I don't know, how are things on the Love Boat??" I laughed and sang back at her.

"Rocking and rolling. You should know that by now! How you feeling?"

"I felt pretty good this morning, but Austin took me back to my house to get my stuff and just taking a shower and packing my things made me so tired I wound up with a headache again." I sighed and sectioned off another bit of my hair.

"That's to be expected I guess, but I also guess this means you haven't let him fuck you silly yet either have you?" She asked as I rolled my eyes at her.

"No Edie! Damn! I promise you will be the first to know. Honestly if I wasn't afraid that my head may explode if we did, I probably would have already let him. He had my ears literally ringing last night, and we didn't even take things that far." I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, thinking back to the feeling of his mouth on me.

"So things are going well? I'm so fucking happy for you Jordy. I can please give you a big I told you so?? BECAUSE I FUCKING TOLD YOU SO!" She half yelled at me.

"Yes ok, I guess I do deserve that." I said with a laugh. "Things are going really well. I mean we are only a couple days into this but it feels like we are so much deeper than that already. We know each other so well, it's just like we have been together for a lot longer. Everything just seems so intimate now, and god he does it well." I sighed.

"I always told you there was something there. You guys were like a couple... who weren't a couple. I swear I knew something had changed when he started being such a dick to you and just stopped showing up. You were so damn depressed all the time!"

"I was not depressed! Mad... maybe a little hurt. But he did not have me depressed.." I huffed. "It wasn't like that then!"

"Bullshit! Jordan, if I had to listen to Phoebe Bridgers wail on about how heartbroken you were in the shop for hours on end for much longer I would have needed antidepressants myself!! Do you know how many times you listened to Moon Song on repeat?" She scolded me.

"It's a good song!" I countered, but maybe she had a point.

"Good for someone who is nursing a broken heart! Fuck babe, you didn't even realize it! You have had feelings for him a lot longer than the past couple weeks. And he has too. You both were just so damn blind. So are you guys like officially a thing? What's the status of all this?" She asked with a giggle.

"We haven't talked about it, just still figuring things out I guess.. and maybe I was blind for a little bit but.. I'm definitely not anymore Eds, it just feels so right." I could feel the blood rush to my face as my cheeks pinked in the mirror.

She squealed and I could hear her clapping her hands in the background as I just laughed.

"Why are you even calling me then? Get your ass back to.. whatever it is you two are doing that isn't sex!" She laughed.

"He has work to do! Or at least that's what he told me. I honestly don't know what he's been up too.. He's taking me on a date tonight. I don't know what he has up his sleeve but I told him I wasn't leaving the house looking the way I do, he assured me that wasn't an issue. I took a nap and when he woke me up someone was in the kitchen cooking, and I'm not allowed to leave this bedroom till he comes and gets me. He locked me away in here a hour ago."