70,000 People But, I Chose You

Chapter 19: Nothing But Us

Justin's p.o.v

I was getting ready to go on stage. I had on a black Balenciaga t-shirt, black pants, and white sneakers. I paired them with black gloves and a gray backwards hat.

I was waiting for Isabelle to come trim up my hair before the show but she never showed up. Immediately i had no interest in performing. I know i was an asshole towards her and i want to talk but i am waiting until after the show. Seeing her right before i go on stage always gives me the motivation i need but, this time i didn't have it because she did not come. I tried my best to put on a good show for the thousands of screaming fans in the stadium but i couldn't help the urge to just be done and go find Isabelle. About halfway through the show, during the acoustic set, a huge smile crept upon my face once i noticed Isabelle in the crowd. She still looked upset with me but still came to support me. "I love you baby." I quickly whispered into the microphone between verses. She smiled and rolled her eyes as the crowd roared over my subtle gesture to make her feel loved. She blew me a kiss as i continued to sing.

   About three songs later, i finished up singing "As I Am" and was about to transition into the next song when one of my dancers came up to me and passed along a message. I quickly looked back into the crowd and realized Isabelle was gone and rushed off of the stage. "Justin where are you going? you have to finish the show!" Scooter shouted as i ran past him. I ran to find Molly, my mom, dad, Allison, Anyone. Finally i found Molly. "Where is she?" I questioned in a panic. "They just took her in an ambulance, come on you can ride with me." Molly said as i ran with her to her car. "Why didn't anyone come get me sooner?" I shouted. "Justin you were in the middle of performing!" Molly shouted back. "Fuck!" I shouted as i punched the car door. "How much blood was there?" I asked nervously. Molly just looked at me. "It's not good Justin." She said. "Holy shit, this is all my fault." I said as tears formed in my eyes. "No, none of this is your fault. Don't do that." Molly said comforting me.
   I stayed silent the rest of the car ride, nervously shaking my leg. We arrived at the hospital and i rushed inside with Molly. Immediately people started to recognize me but they kept their distance. We headed to her room in the emergency room and quickly ran up to her bedside. "Justin." She said through tears. "Im right here baby." I said kissing her on the head a few times. "There was blood Jay, so much blood. I couldn't stop it." She cried. Tears filled my eyes again as i kissed her head over and over again. "Im so sorry. I should have been there." I said, angry at myself. "It's not your fault, i guess now just wasn't the right time." She said. "So we lost the baby?" I said, not wanting to hear the answer. "We did. But its okay, now we don't have to worry about the press." She said, trying to tell me what she thought i wanted to hear. The truth is, i want to be a dad, so bad. I was an asshole. I wanted this baby, i was just scared. Now, I'm just heartbroken. "Belle, i don't care about the press. I wanted this baby. I wanted to be a dad, even if we weren't ready. Im so sorry for how i acted. This is all my fault." I said crying to her. We both just started crying and held each other closely.
   "What about the show Justin?" Isabelle asked. "I didn't finish. I ran off of the stage as soon as i heard what happened." I explained. "You can't do that to your fans, they love you." She said. "Exactly, if they love me, they will understand. I also decided to cancel the rest of the tour dates." I admitted. "What! Why? Babe I'm fine!" She said nervously. "I know you are. But when we first started all of this, we just jumped right into touring. We barely have time to ourselves. I want to focus on us." I explained. "But, you said touring is your home, you love it," she said. "That was true, but that was before i knew how much i could love you." I said, kissing her softly. "Stop it right now, i am going to cry." Molly said as she walked into the room and overheard what i just said. We both laughed at her and kissed one more time.

Isabelle's p.o.v
 
   We were now back at Justin's house. The doctor told me to rest for a day or two and to call her back if the bleeding continues. So i was a couch potato all day, snuggled in a blanket, binge watching Outer Banks. Justin was downstairs in his recording studio working on some music while i got some rest. He had been down there for a while. He loves writing music. He gets lost in it and can be down there for hours sometimes so i try not to bother him, but i was missing him so this time i did. I pulled myself off of the warm comfortable couch and made my way downstairs in my comfy sweat outfit and fuzzy slippers.

I could hear his perfect, soft, yet sexy voice the closer i got as he tested his vocals. I leaned against the doorway of his recording studio and just watched him make his magic. He didn't realize i was there so i just took it all in.

Biting my lip as i watch his fingers tap again the desk and listened to him hum a few sounds as he tried to piece the right sounds together. He is amazing, this man has some true talent. He wrote a few words down on a note pad and then set his pencil down and leaned back in his chair while removing his hat and placing it backwards back onto his head. I'd die for that man in a backwards hat. "God damn you are so sexy when you work." I said as a smile crept upon my face. He stopped what he was doing and smiled at me. "Aren't you supposed to be resting?" He questioned as he came up to me, wrapping his arms around my torso. "I would much rather watch you over some boring tv show." I said biting my lip and planting a soft kiss on his lips. "Oh Belle, you have a way with words." He said as he tucked a piece of hair behind my ear. "How are you feeling?" He asked, getting a little less playful and more serious. "My body feels fine, mentally i am still in shock. It was traumatic." I admitted. "What should we do to get your mind off of it?" He asked. I had to think for a minute of what i could do or who i could go see. His family, Instantly popped into my head. I have never felt so loved by so many people. "Actually, can we go see your family?" I asked. "My family? Why?" He didn't understand. "I just love being around them." I explained. "If thats what you want, we can head out there tomorrow morning." He said and i nodded my head yes then gave him another kiss.