Unevitable | Ryeji |

Chapter 36: Descent into Chaos

Felix's Pov:

I was sitting on my couch, mindlessly scrolling through my phone, not really focused on anything. Tomorrow’s mission loomed over me, but for now, I just wanted to relax, clear my head. Still, my thoughts kept circling back to that night. I hadn't told anyone what I saw, not even Yeji. Not about Dr. Chaeryeong amd the guy with her. They killed someone right in front of me, and I just stood there, frozen, like a coward.

I should've reported it, should've told Yeji. But Hyunjin... damn him. I don't know why I can't get him out of my head. Maybe it’s his charm, or maybe it’s something deeper. All I know is, I’m caught in this mess now. The guilt’s eating me alive, but I can’t let him get hurt, not even by my own team.

Tomorrow’s mission could change everything, but for now, I’m stuck in this silence, waiting for the moment I’ll have to choose sides.

Will I choose duty or love? I ask myself that question over and over. Can I even call it love? Or is it just attraction, something fleeting and dangerous? Maybe it’s the thrill, the excitement of something I shouldn’t want. But then, every time I think about Hyunjin, it feels deeper than just attraction. It feels like there's something real, something more.

But can I risk it? Can I betray everything I’ve worked for, my team, for someone who might not even feel the same? I’ve always prided myself on doing what’s right, on protecting the people I care about. But now, those lines are blurred, tangled like a web I can't escape.

Tomorrow, I’ll have to face it. I’ll have to make that choice. Duty or love. I just wish I knew if this was love at all.

Why did he have to be a murderer?

Of all the people I could’ve fallen for—why him? Why Hyunjin, of all people? I could’ve handled anything else, anything. But knowing he's part of this… it’s like a punch in the gut every time I remember. Every time I see him. I want to forget it, pretend it isn’t real, that he isn’t tied to all these deaths. But I saw it with my own eyes.

Maybe it would've been easier if I didn’t know. If I could just look at him and see the person I thought he was, the person I wanted him to be. But no, he's part of this bloody mess, and I’m just standing here, torn between what I know is right and this... this feeling I can’t shake.

Why did he have to be a murderer? Why couldn't things be simple for once?

My mind drifts back to all the time we’ve spent together, and it hits me how much can change in just a few months. At first, it was just fleeting glances, a passing smile, nothing more. But then we started talking, getting closer. There were moments that felt so normal, like we were just two people enjoying each other's company—no lies, no blood on our hands.

I remember the way he’d laugh at the dumbest jokes I made, the way his eyes would light up when he talked about something he cared about. Those moments felt real, untouched by the chaos around us. I clung to them like lifelines, hoping they were more than just illusions.

But now, looking back, I wonder if it was all just a lie. If he was hiding this darker side of himself all along, or if he ever really felt the same. Was it just a game to him? Did any of it mean anything?

Still, those memories—they haunt me. They make me question everything. How did things get so complicated so fast? How did we go from strangers to this mess in just a few months?

Standing in front of the hospital with my team, I could feel the weight of the mission hanging over all of us. The sun was setting, casting long shadows across the pavement, but my mind was elsewhere—back to Hyunjin. My stomach churned with a mix of nerves and guilt, but I forced myself to focus. Tonight wasn’t about him. It was about Yeji, Lia, Seungmin, Minho—my team. My duty.