Charlie's POV
After school, I head straight home, just like my mom wanted me to. I do everything I can to please her, but somehow, in the end, I always end up disappointing her in some way.
I come home to an empty house, which is strange, but Tori had a thing after school that she couldn't get out of, and both of my parents are at work. I know I could call Nick and ask him to come over, but after fighting with my mom again this morning, I don't want to annoy her more than she already is.
Our fight this morning was because I didn't want to go to school again. She got angry with me and wouldn't leave my room until I got up. I, of course, told her to get out as I was changing, and she did, slamming my door.
She got angry again when I refused to eat breakfast, but by that point, Tori was there and we left together, taking the bus to school.
I go upstairs and change out of my school uniform and into one of Nick's jumpers and some baggy joggers. I've been wearing a lot of looser clothing, mostly because every time I catch a glimpse of my body in the mirror, I want to throw up, but also because I don't need anyone asking me any questions about it.
Sometimes, I get scared when Nick and I are cuddling or he hugs me because I know how skinny I am. I get a little scared of him judging me for what I've done to myself.
After today though, my thoughts on that have changed.
I know he'd never do something like that, at least I hope he won't.
I go over to my school bag and take out all the work that I've missed the last week. I start doing it, getting my mind off the thoughts in my head. As I'm working, I hold the sleeve of Nick's jumper up to my nose, inhaling his scent.
I wish he was here right now.
I didn't realize how much I missed him until he was over last night. Now, I just wanna be with him all the time again. When I'm with him, the voices in my head get a little less loud, but I also just enjoy spending time with him.
I glance over at my phone. I want to text him, I want to have him over, but I know that my mom's still pissed with me and pissed at him too.
Eventually, I just go back to doing my work. I really don't want to give her another reason to be mad.
After I've finished most of my work, I grab my phone and lay in bed. I go to mine and Nick's messages and finally decide to text him. At this point, just talking to him is better than anything.
Charlie: i miss you 😞
Nick: I miss you too
Nick: I wish you were here or I was there
Nick: Either way I wish I was with you ❤️
Charlie: i wish i was with you too
Charlie: my mom's still angry with me
Nick: Have you talked to her?
Charlie: she won't be home for a little bit
Charlie: honestly it's been nice having the house to myself
Nick: See now I REALLY wish I was there 😏
Charlie: omg so cringe
Nick: Oh but you looooove it
Charlie: ok
Charlie: maybe i do
I smile at my phone. He makes me feel so special without even trying. He doesn't really have to say anything or do anything and I'll still feel loved by him. I really don't know how I went four whole days without speaking to him.
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Evermore :||: Nick & Charlie
RomantizmCharlie likes to pretend everything is fine, happy, perfect, but now that his struggles are revealed to Nick, it's going to just get harder and harder to hide how he's feeling. He doesn't want to worry Nick, so it might be best to keep it to himself...
