I miss you, I'm sorry

Part 26

... This leads us to the day they were planning to watch the video, Aj can't handle the pain anymore, he really can't. He was still cutting, another way to handle the pain, but maybe today he had gone a bit too far. Remembering what him and Niko had done that day only increased his anxiety. He walks into his bathroom, grabbing his freshly placed blade, sighing as he makes yet another cut after cut. Over the past few months the scars started piling up, creating a beautiful mess over his skin. Tears flow down his cheeks as his memories haunt him, each punch to the gut creating a new mark. One memory in particular causing him to press down deeply. The next even harder.

AJ began to feel dizzy, the blade falling to the floor, as he collapses in his place.

...

He wakes up around 30 minutes later, his head pounding, wrists burning. He sees the bloody mess beneath him, a pool of liquid surrounding his body. Fuck, he rubs his head, changing his clothes and climbing into the shower. He wraps his wrist and throws on a pair of shorts and a random hoodie, which was definitely not his, that was discarded across his room. He ties his hair into a small ponytail, not bothered for the wet curls to drip in his face.

AJ stumbles downstairs to see all the boys waiting for him. "Oops," He smiles, his body too tired to put in a full face.

"Where were you?" Sharky asks.

"In my room?" Aj practically spits out sarcastically, sitting in his corner seat on the sofa between Sharky and Chunkz.

"I knocked on your door like 20 minutes ago and you didn't answer, and then you weren't in your bed."

"I was -uh, in the shower,"

"Oh, makes sense," Sharky says, shrugging his shoulders.

"Now lets watch,"

They watch the video, feeling happy about the result. It ended up being a nice vid, and they all agreed that after the lockdown, they'll play it again in a new location.

"I'm going to get water," Aj mumbles, almost collapsing as he stands.

AJ walks into the kitchen, filling up his cup and taking a sip. As he turns to go back to the cinema room, he bumps into Niko, spilling half the cup on his chest.

"Watch where you're going," Niko spits angrilly.

"Get out of my way you dick."

"Oh sorry Princess, does everyone need to move out the way for you. Last time I checked you weren't in charge, you're just a little slut that will fuck anything with a pulse"

"AND neither are you. You act so high and mighty when you're nothing. You know nothing Nikolas, absolutely NOTHING."

"Gosh, You are so annoying. You're too loud, annoying, always in my fucking way and if you weren't a good fuck I would have honestly never have spoken to you again."

"I'M annoying? Me? Have you met your self? You act so innocent, when we all know this is all your fault. You act like you're so fucking special, reality check, YOU'RE NOT. I have in my right mind to throw this cup at your face, maybe then you can get out of my life for good this time."

"Oh you wanna kill me? Very Original AJ. Go on, do it. Kill me like you killed your brother.." Niko screams out teasingly.

Aj's anger boiled, his breathing increasing, and his whole body shaking "Too far, Nikolas." He knows he would never use Niko's trauma against him, and here Niko is, doing the same thing to Aj.

The boys walk in to see the chaos heard from the cinema room, confused as to what Niko even meant.

AJ pushes Niko back, but he only manages to stumble. "Don't fucking push me," Niko yells, pushing Aj so hard his back hits the corner of the island, causing him to fall back and smack his head on the sharp edge too. Aj collapses onto the floor, fully unconscious, as his wounds slowly pour out blood.

"AJ!" Chunkz screams out, running to pull the boy into his lap. He yanks some tissue from teh island and presses it against Aj's head, "CALL A FUCKING AMBULANCE!"

Niko looks down in shock, his mouth hanging wide open as he stumbles back in regret. He never meant for this to happen, was Aj going to die?

"If anything happens to him Niko I swear to God I will kill you." Chunkz spits, tears welling in his eyes as he holds Aj's limp body, rocking him back and forth. 

"You're okay AJe, You're okay, you will be okay, you have to be. Don't leave me, please," Chunkz rambles in a whisper as Kenny calls 999.

Chunkz couldn't  loose AJ, he couldn't. AJ was his brother, the younger brother he never had. If he lost AJ, then he would loose a part of himself too.

Niko shakes as he runs out the house, straight to his hidden spot, and pulling out his secret weed stash from inside the seesaw. He didn't want to think anymore, he couldn't...

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840 words.

Short but yeah... 

oopsies.