I miss you, I'm sorry

Part 37

Aj woke up with a comfortable warmth beside him, his mind recalling the night before. Niko always knew how to make him feel better, even in his most difficult moments. Aj takes this quiet time awake to just stare at Niko; bask in the silence and appreciate Niko for who he his.

Niko feels Aj's eyes on him, the way his finger traces across his face, so careful almost as if too much pressure would cause Niko to break, or simply disappear, ghost like. He decides to see where Aj goes with this, trying his best to not change his facial expression. 

Aj sighs as he watches Niko's sleeping form, "I wish things could've been different..." he whispers in the air, to supposedly no one, "I wonder what would've happened if we hadn't broken up... would we still be together? I really hope so... I wish you could understand how much I love you... How much I have loved you... As much as you were the reason I wanted to die...  you're the reason I'm still alive." He says quietly in short sentences, confessing to no one. "I-I'm happier with you I think." A small part of him whished Niko could hear him, but was glad the boy was still supposedly asleep.

Aj was telling Niko the honest truth, since him and Niko have been friends Aj had been actually eating not feeling the same pit in his stomach whenever he even had even a thought of food, sleeping through the night with less and less re-occurring nightmares, and con

He closes his eyes once again, curling up closer into Niko's chest, taking in the warmth and scent Niko provided. Niko pulls Aj closer into his chest, deciding now was the perfect time to 'wake up'. He kisses Aj's head, voice raspy from sleep, "Morning, Baby."

Aj looks up at Niko, "Morning. Sleep well?"

"Mhmm," Niko sighs, pulling Aj impossibly closer into his chest, "better that you're here." And AJ definitely didn't blush...

 "What are we doing today?"

"I'm not sure yet,  I think we're going to go on a walk or something and maybe play some games, and maybe some other things" Niko smirks.

"Maybe some other things my ass."

"I would love to 'other things' your ass," Niko winks.

"Okay, you horny bastard," Aj rolls his eyes, stretching so his back arches, "As much as I don't want to, We need to get up."

"I mean, we don't have to," Niko leans down to kiss Aj, taking his lips in passionately, manoeuvring them so he is hovering over Aj, a soft, heated makeout taking place. 

Aj easily give into the kiss, like an addict, enjoying the way Niko felt above him. He moans into Niko's mouth, easily letting him dominate, using the excuse he was too tired to be able to fight back...

The door swings open as Sharky walks in with staring at his phone, "Hey Niko have you see- Oh my god." 

Both boys shoot their head to the door, reluctantly pulling away from each others lips.

"Well I found Aj," Sharky chuckles, cooing silently as Aj tucks his head in Nikos neck embarrassed. 

"Well uhm anyways, when you two are done fucking come downstairs, Amin made breakfast."

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Aj was blushing as him and Niko walk downstairs, knowing Sharky had definitely already told the others. 

"Wait, Nik." AJ says outside the kitchen door, "What are- what- do you wanna- What are we going to say?"

Niko turns to face Aj, cupping his face in his hand and kissing his lips chaste. "We'll just tell them the truth okay? Would you rather me speak, or you? I just want you to be comfortable, Babe"