Ranked #7 in Toxic
#3 in BWWM
#20 in dark romance
Raya doesn't believe in love anymore because every guy she dates or takes serious shows her why she'd rather be alone but she that doesn't mean she wants to be. One night on a night she was called...
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Raya
I don't know how long I've been tied up in here for but I'm sure it's been like two days.
Jamal would come in to feed me and give me some water. He would only let me out of my ropes to use the bathroom or take a shower and then I'm right back tied up to the bed. At night, when he thinks I'm sleeping, he would come in and lay in bed with me. He would talk to me about his past. About him being this way since he was a teenager, about him trying to change but fail, about him being in jail for years because of Erica who grew tired of him, about him cheating on her and about his love for Harmony.
I've had time to think about things.
I'm no longer angry or mad at him. I understand him a little better. Jamal isn't a complete sicko when he's being sweet. He's actually a teddy bear deep deep deep down.
His mind just doesn't work the same way everyone else's does and that's okay. He embraces that and he doesn't let it take over fully. He feels emotions and feelings he just doesn't know how to express them.
He uses his actions to show me how much he cares for me and though he's harmed me it was always sexually, never physically. He tries to reason with me and I've done nothing but been a bitch towards him and I'm starting to feel really bad about it.
One night, I asked him if he would ever cheat on me and he promised on his grave that he wouldn't. He says the only reason why he did that to Erica was because he didn't feel her love for him anymore. He couldn't kill her because of Harmony so he did the next best thing- his words not mine- and cheated on her. That's when she called the cops on him but they didn't believe the kidnapping or the stalker story because she was literally married to him. She couldn't tell them about his murderous ways either because she knew she would be an accomplice.
So, he was only put away for abuse and when he got out, he went for Erica. She was scared for her life so she agreed to let him see Harmony whenever he wanted, no matter what the custody contract says.
That's when I knew how serious he was about love and me. If he went through all of that just for Erica, I can only image what he would go through for me.
That's love.
So I did something that surprised him completely when he came in to feed me again.
