Kyler Jenner, the older twin brother of Kylie, has been noted as a model, a music producer, and a business man, helping his family navigate through the ups and downs. Throughout his career, he's been able to help the Kar-Jenner family with their com...
A few weeks have passed and things have been good. Kylie's Forbes magazine was released and there's been a lot of support, with some hate, but we've ignored it. It was cool to see the magazine in person because Kylie apparently pulled some strings and had some pictures of us in there along with some words from the mini interview I had with her.
My July 13 single, "Fine," has been doing mediocre at best. A lot of people loved that I was being open about my anxiety struggles and have been showing me a lot of love, but there's also been some people calling me the "baby Jenner," calling me out for being weak. Let's just say, there's been a lot of opinions. People knew I had anxiety, but they didn't know what it was like for me. What happens to me during some of my bad moments, but it's whatever, I'm fine...
Now, we are on my third single's release day and I am with Kels and Stass at my place. Kylie said she'd be coming in a bit after she drops Stormi off at Travis' place. Mom told me to do a little IG live either before or after I release my song which has been triggering my anxiety just a little. So, here I am sitting in my living room, Kels and Stass at my sides trying to calm me down.
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KELS: "Baby, it'll be great. It doesn't matter what people say. So what people are calling you weak, I know the kind of strength you have. You know what you can do. They do not deserve to have this power over you. It's gonna be fine." She rubs my back, trying to get me out of my head, but I just keep breathing harder and harder, feeling the pressure piling up. Her words not helping the overdrive my brain has been sending me into.
I start to bite the bottom of my lip and fidget with my hands, closing and opening them.
I can't mess up, I can't ruin this, I can't disappoint my family, I can't handle this, I can't do this, I ca-
STASS: "Big Ky, look at me." She kneels in front of me and grabs my face, noticing my panic attack coming fast. "5 things you can see? Stay on me okay?"
KYLER: "Your face, the TV, my phone, Kelsey's legs, my hands." I completed it after a few minutes, still breathing hard, putting my hand over my heart.
STASS: "4 things you can touch?" She rubs her thumb over my cheeks while Kelsey keeps rubbing my back.
KYLER: "Kels' hand, my sweater, your arms, my hands." I start to calm just a bit at the feeling of Stass' hands on my face.
STASS: "That's good, 3 things you can hear? You got this babes." She moves a hand over my hand on my heart and taps it lightly in a slow rhythm.
KYLER: "The TV, my breathing, the music." I put my hand over hers on my cheek and tap it slowly, trying to regain my strength and breath.
STASS: "2 things you can smell now." She starts to mess with the hair falling on my face.
KYLER: "Uhh your perfume, my cologne." I stare into her eyes and feel myself calming down more and more.
