Back Together ~ pt 4

❤︎︎ Nineteen ❤︎︎

"dad, I don't wanna be a teen mum... I'm barely 13... I can't have a baby..." she said. She was terrified. I wrapped my arms around her and held her close

"I know it's scary, Liliana. But we'll figure something out. We have options"

"I don't want it... I can't have a baby... dad, I don't want it..."

"You don't have to do this alone, baby girl. We'll face this together. And whatever decision you make, I'll be here to support you"

"I don't even know if I can have an abortion yet... I don't know anything... I just really don't want it..."

"We'll research together. And if it comes to that, I'll make sure you're taken care of. You don't have to do this alone"

"I just don't want mum to know... she'll kill me..."

"Your mother won't kill you. But I understand why you don't want to tell her right now. We'll keep this between us for now, okay?"

"thanks, dad... can we just get some sort of abortion sorted out...? I seriously don't want this baby... I don't wanna go through the process of being pregnant and I don't want the baby either... I'm too young..."

"We'll find a way, baby girl. I promise. Let's just take things one step at a time"

"I can't have this baby..."

"I know it's scary, but we'll get through this together. We won't make any rash decisions. We'll research our options and make the best decision for you. I promise, okay?"

"I don't want it... I don't want it..."

"I know you don't, baby girl. And we'll do everything we can to make sure you don't have to go through this alone"

"I don't wanna ruin my childhood for a stupid fucking baby I don't want anyways... I don't care if this is technically your grandbaby... I don't want it..."

"It's okay, baby girl. We'll figure something out. Just try not to stress too much about it. You're not ruining your childhood, and you're definitely not alone in this"

"I just want this baby out of me..."

"Baby, we need to talk about the reality of the situation"

"dad, I don't want it!!! I want this baby out of me!!! I don't want to be a mum yet!!!"

"Liliana, if we're talking about an abortion, it has to be done soon"

"I want it gone... get me an abortion. I don't want this baby"

"Alright, baby girl" I said. I got her abortion pills and everything was sorted again. Liliana felt like shit after. I didn't blame her. I managed to drag her and Lexi to the beach while Lexi was actually awake. She had been so ill lately. Lexi cuddled into me as we laid on the beach.

"what's going on with Liliana...? she's been so distant and she just hasn't been acting like herself..." she said. I had to tell Lexi. I couldn't keep it from her.

"Well, Lex, she's going through something really tough right now. She took a pregnancy test a couple of days ago, and it came back positive"

"she what???? Why didn't you tell me???"

"I wasn't sure how you'd react, Lex. You've never really been supportive of Lily's choices before"

"I have!!! when have I ever not???"

"Look, Lex, I know you've been there for her in the past, but she feels like you haven't been as supportive lately. And honestly, she's scared and alone right now"

"because I've been ill!!! I've not been able to be there for her because I've been ill!!! I'm such a bad mum..."

"No, you're not a bad mum, Lex. You've always done your best for Lily, even when it was hard. And now it's time to show her that love and support again. She needs you right now more than ever before" I said. Lexi took a shaky breath before wrapping her arms around Liliana

"Lils... I know I've not been around a lot but I've been really ill... I'm sorry if I made you feel like you couldn't tell me that you were pregnant... but I'm here... I love you, sweetheart..."

"it doesn't matter anyways... I'm on abortion pills now..." Liliana said. We didn't say much after that. Liliana went to bed as soon as we got home and me & Lexi cuddled on the couch.

"I'm such a shit mum... she should have felt comfortable enough to tell me..."

"You're not a shit mum, Lex. You've always been there for Lils, even when you couldn't be physically present"

"I just wish I would stop getting ill... it's like my body is just failing me... I'm scared I'm gonna get so ill that it's gonna kill me..."

"Lexi, you're not going to die"

"But what if I do??? I'm never going to get better!!! I'm constantly ill!!! but I don't want to go to the doctors to check if it's anything..."

"Lexi, you need to go to the doctor. You can't keep avoiding this"

"no!!! what if it's something really bad???"

"Lexi, you deserve to know what's going on with your health. Please, just go to the doctor and get checked out"

"no!!! I don't wanna know!!!"

"Lexi, if you don't go to the doctor, I will make an appointment for you and take you myself"

"but, Lan..."

"No buts about it. You're going to the doctor, whether you like it or not"

"fuck you..."

"Lexi, I'm trying to help you here. Please don't talk to me like that"

"I don't wanna know..."

"You need to know. It could be something serious and I'm not having you wait until it gets even worse"