Back Together ~ pt 4

❤︎︎ Twenty-Four ❤︎︎

*Lexi's POV*

I had another chemo session after a few days and I felt so ill. I was so drained

"I was so tired and weak the whole time... did they say if it's working or not...?" I asked Lando

"Yeah, they said it's working as intended. Fatigue and weakness are normal side effects. Hang in there, baby. It'll pass soon"

"I feel so ill and weak... I can't even feel my legs..."

"Don't worry, sweetheart. You just need to rest. The nausea and weakness are temporary. I'll stay by your side until you feel better"

"I don't think I'm gonna feel better any time soon... I just want this over with... I'm probably gonna be doing this for years on end now..."

"I know it's tough, baby. But we have to stay positive. You're strong, and you can beat this"

"I can't... it hurts too much... I'm so fucking weak... I can't even raise our own fucking daughter... she's 13 and literally has to cook us meals half the time because you can't cook shit and I'm too weak..."

"You know that's not true. I may not be the best cook, but I try my best. And as for raising our daughter, we're in this together. You just need to rest and recover"

"all I'm fucking doing is resting and every day I'm getting weaker and weaker"

"I know it's hard, baby. But we have to stay positive and focus on the fact that you're getting better every day. Remember how strong you are, and that this will pass soon"

"it won't!!! I literally feel like I'm gonna die any second... if you imagine how death feels it's how I feel right now"

"You're not going to die, baby. You're strong, and you're going to beat this. I know it's tough, but we have to stay positive and keep fighting"

"I'm too weak... I can't even push myself off the bed..."

"Let's just focus on getting you to the bathroom, okay? We'll take it one step at a time" he said. That was the last thing I remembered him saying before I passed out. I woke up in the hospital and instantly threw up in this sick bucket. My body was reacting so badly to everything. "It's gonna be okay, baby..."

"I'm so weak... I can hardly even hold this sick bucket..."

"I know you're feeling weak, baby, but you have to keep fighting. We're going to get you through this, I promise"

"I don't think we are..."

"No, sweetheart. You can't think like that. We have the best doctors and nurses here taking care of you"

"and I don't even think they're gonna get rid of this leukaemia... search up the percentage of adults that survive leukaemia... I bet it won't be a lot..."

"I'm not going to let you give up. I'm not going to lose you"

"I don't think we get to make that decision..."

"Yes, we do. We decide our own fate. We're going to fight this together, baby girl"

"we're not... it's taking over me faster than we thought..."

"You listen to me. You are going to beat this. I will not allow anything to take you away from me"

"you can't decide that, Lan... you can't just not let leukaemia not kill me..."

"No, baby girl. I can decide that. And I will decide that. You are not going anywhere without me"

"Lan... I hate to break it to you but we don't decide our own fate... especially when it comes to things like this..."