Back Together ~ pt 4

❤︎︎ Thirty-Five ❤︎︎

*Lexi's POV*

I felt so much rage in that moment. He cheated on me???

"you cheated on me last week...?" I said

"Lex... I..."

"Is Liliana telling the truth? did you cheat on me??"

"Yes... I did cheat on you, but I promise you it was a mistake"

"how can that be a fucking mistake??? what the fuck is wrong with you???"

"Lexi..." he said as he tried to hold my hand. I didn't want him to fucking touch me

"Get away from me!!"

"I understand if you need time to process this... But please don't shut me out completely. I love you, Lexi"

"I don't fucking love you, Lando. you fucking cheated on me!!!"

"I know... But I'm begging you to give me another chance. I promise I'll never do anything like this again"

"how can I fucking believe that??? who was she??? who did you cheat on me with??? what's her fucking name???"

"I don't know her name..."

"What do you mean you don't know her name??? What's fucking wrong with you??? get away from me!!! you're dead to me!!! I don't want to ever see you again!!! fuck the Paris trip!!!"

"Please don't say that... I know I messed up big time, but I'm willing to do whatever it takes to make this right. I love you too much to lose you"

"should have fucking thought about that before you went and cheated on me!!!"

"I know... And I'm so sorry. But let me make it up to you, Lexi. Give me a chance to prove that I can be the man you need"

"no!!! you fucked up big time and you can't fix this!!! you've had your dick in another woman!!!" I said. I couldn't believe it. I started to actually feel sick. Like actually feeling sick... everything went black. I woke up in the hospital.

"Lex... sweetheart... you okay...?"

"What...?"

"You had a seizure, sweetheart... you scared me to death... it was caused by all the stress"

"That's your fault"

"I know... and I'm so sorry for cheating on you... I just got so drunk and I wasn't thinking straight at all... please forgive me. Please give me another chance..."

"not right now. maybe in the future but not right now. you've fucked up way too much recently"

"Take your time, and I'll be here whenever you're ready. I just want you to know that I'm still here for you, no matter what"

"the big question is though... what are we doing about all this? I'm not forgiving you or giving you another chance any time soon so do we divorce or wait a few months?"

"I don't want a divorce. But I also understand if that's what you want. Give me some time to prove myself, Lexi. Please just don't shut me out completely"

"okay... no divorce... yet... so what do we do about the house? because there's no way I'm sleeping in the same bed as you and I don't really wanna speak to you while I'm still processing everything..."

"You don't have to speak to me if you don't want to. And we can figure out living arrangements later. For now, just focus on getting better"

"I feel fine"

"You know what I mean, baby girl. Just focus on yourself and healing. And if you change your mind about giving me another chance, please don't shut me out completely" he said. I completely broke down in that moment. He literally had to get in the bed with me and had to hold me close. I didn't care that I was pissed at him. I needed cuddles. "I promise, Lexi. I'll do everything in my power to make this right. Please don't cry, baby girl..." he said. If anything that made me cry even more. I was so emotional in that moment. I was completely breaking down in his arms. "It's okay, baby... I've got you..." he said. Everything was fine until it went black again. I had another seizure. I woke up in Lando's arms. He just held me close and tried to act like nothing happened. He didn't want me to stress out even more. I kept having seizures over and over again. I had about 5 in the space of 2 hours. He pulled me onto his lap at one point. I was so confused as to what he was doing but then he started to lift my shirt up...

"Lan..." I said

"Shh. Just let me have you" he said.

"Lan... we're in the hospital..."

"I don't care. You're all I want"

"Lando!! no!! I'm not having sex with you in hospital!!"

"You're killing me... please just let me have you" he said while kissing my neck. What the fuck was wrong with him??

"Lando, no. not now"

"Now. Please, baby"

"Lando!! this is why we're having marriage issues!! you can't keep your hands to yourself and you're being controlling at the moment!! i said no and that should be it!! we both have to be in the mood in order to do things together and if one person isn't in the mood then we shouldn't do it!!"

"I know... But I want you so bad right now" he said. I literally smacked him across the face

"listen to me!!! you need to stop being so fucking controlling!!! you don't just get to have sex with me whenever you want just because we're married!!! that's not how it works!!! now start acting like a responsible adult before I shove divorce papers in your face!!!"

"You're such a tease" he said while he was still touching me. I literally felt like I was being sexually assaulted by my own fucking husband.

"Lando, stop!!"

"You're so fucking wet for me"

"Get off me!!!

"Make me" he said. My stress build up was way too high and I had another seizure. He was causing them.