I'LL LET THE WORLD BURN... for you ⋆ym⋆

23. the moon knows we're in love

Jimin lies wide awake in his bed, staring up at the ceiling as he starts to think about how much his life has changed in these past few weeks. Everything happened so fast that he still thinks he's living a fever dream.

He used to live a life where he felt like a side character in everyone's life. It's like he was invisible to everyone around him, nobody paid attention to his existence. His life used to be a monotonous routine of eat, sleep and repeat.

Being happy and smiling seemed like a big burden to him, he'd look at other people being happy and think what would it feel like to be happy like them. He was always surrounded by so many people, his classmates and teachers in his university, the servants and guards in his house, yet he felt alone.

He thought he'd continue to live such a dull life until his demise but then Yoongi came into his life. His savior, who filled his dull life with colors.

He starts to think how he got a second chance in life as he started to live with Yoongi, his life became so much better. He didn't laugh as much in the past years as he did in the past few days and it's all because of Yoongi.

He felt like a whole new person, he'd smile without any reason, he'd share his past memories that he has never told anyone before, he confided in Yoongi about his feelings, Yoongi became his safe space.

He still remembers the fear he felt when Yoongi was shot. If something had happened to Yoongi that day, then he's sure he would have followed Yoongi to the heavens too.
He has become so attached to Yoongi that even thinking about spending a day without him hurts him physically.

He thinks he might have fallen for Yoongi.

And it didn't happen just now, he thinks he fell in love with Yoongi a long time ago. It's just that he was way too blind towards his feelings. He gave so much importance to Minjae that he didn't realize what he felt for Yoongi.

He thought his feelings for Yoongi were the same that a friend has for another, but now he can clearly tell that friends don't behave like that. Friends don't get jealous over the thought of other having a boyfriend, friends don't feel shy with every minimal touch, friends don't feel sparks flying through their body while calling each other husbands.

Jimin let out a small gasp as he sat up, it finally kicked in his brain.

/ He's in love with Yoongi! /

He has been in love with Yoongi for quite a long time now. His face started to heat up and he could feel the flutter of butterflies in his stomach.

Though he's a little late, he's glad that he came to this revelation after Yoongi confessed to him. Or else he'd have been so nervous to even tell Yoongi his feelings or maybe he'd have never found out.

But now that he does, he wants to go scream these feelings at the top of his lungs. He doesn't understand how Yoongi managed to keep his feelings in check for so long, he already feels his stomach twist and turn. He wants to go tell Yoongi that he loves him.

" Jimin ah ?"
Jimin flinches a little on hearing Yoongi's voice when he was just thinking about confessing to him.

" What are you doing in the dark ?"
Jimin didn't realize it was already dark outside until Yoongi pointed it out, he was so lost in his thoughts that he forgot the time.

" It's dinner time."
Yoongi walks down after that leaving Jimin alone once again.

He needs to confess today if not then he won't be able to fall asleep. The butterflies in his stomach are killing him. He won't be able to breathe in peace until he lets out his overflowing feelings. So, with a determined mind he got out of the room.