Hold on, don't you let go. (Tayvin/Talvin)

Two lost loves

TAYLOR'S POV (You will see Calvin's pov in the next chapter, I noticed you haven't really seen his pov for a while, it's just because I want to convey what Taylor is going through!)

He looked me directly in the eye, his eyebrows raised up and he repeated again; "Well? Who are you?" I shook my head letting the tears,that I had worked so hard to fight off, stream down my face hopelessly. There's nothing to stay strong for anymore, there's no point to trying to hold back my tears. He's gone...He doesn't know me anymore.

Running over the fact that I used to be his girlfriend, and I used to be the one he'd hold tightly, tighter than anyone in his life. Now I'm just a stranger..a stranger who's sitting in front of him looking like a mess and crying endlessly. The worst part of it all is he can't hold me tight anymore and whisper sweet things in my ear, he used to dry my tears and cheer me up but now..now I've lost him.

His face became less tensed and more confused he tried to grab my hand but I pulled away, knowing that if I had of let him, I wouldn't stop crying for the rest of my life.

Adam: Please don't cry...I might sound creepy..but you're too beautiful to cry..

I forced a weak smile, while the tears flowed down my face, and used the little will left in me to stand up. I walked to the entrance of the room and put on a fake smile for Selena,Karlie and Ed.

Ed gently pulled my arm and hugged me, I needed this I needed someone to hug because Adam sure as heck isn't going to.

"He'll get through this..I know he can."

He whispered into my shoulder, I nodded slightly and whispered into his ear; "I can't be here right now..I'm sorry."

I pulled away, he gave me a sympathetic smile.

Taylor: Take care of my...

I don't know what to say because in any other situation I would've called him my boyfriend but, I don't feel right saying that, especially because he has no idea who I am, let alone that we are- were dating.

That crushes me the most.

"Taken care of him for me."

I say before walking out the door, I gave Karlie and Selena short hugs also.

I need to get back to my apartment quickly before I break down in the middle of New York, and that is a nice headline for the paparazzi to paste all over the news headlines tomorrow, I couldn't handle people questioning everything in my life because right now I'm starting to question my life myself. I don't like being so unsure. 

I arrive outside the hospital and search for Charles, my driver, I can't seem to find him anywhere, which is strange, he is always there to pick me up or drive me to places. I don't need a driver, I am happy to walk any other day, except today. My tears roll down my checks more and more as I struggle for breaths. Just to make me feel even worse a flood of paparazzi come running towards me.

I make a dash for in the other direction downtown, luckily my apartment is only a five minute walk away. I know I have to get away from them because if I stay and wait for Charles, there will be hundreds of pictures of me crying all over the internet and my tears will be the next news headline for many years to come.

I keep my head buried in my coat as I pace rapidly down the streets of New York, I'd hate for someone to stop me and ask for a picture because I don't want my fans to see me like this, to them I am this strong woman who can take even the harshest of blows. I can't be seen so broken like this...I just can't.

But even the thought of my lovely fans doesn't stop me from crying a flood of tears. He had that that effect on me, that I would do anything for him...I would jump in front of a train for him.....I loved him more than anything I've ever come across in my entire life. But leaving your heart open and loving someone fully has it's risks. That is what I was scared of from the very start...losing him when I had only just got him back.

I found myself standing in front of the tall building that consists of many apartments, including my own, I let out a sigh of relief as I wasted no time in rushing in there, to finally escape from the horrible men with cameras.

My feet ran getting faster by the second, I dodge people, who gave me angry looks for bumping into them but at this moment I just want to crawl up in bed and dream everything away.

I'm not even looking up to see anything, my head is down and I keep running. But then I crash into someone, I whimpered as I struggled for breaths. "I'm so sorry, please forgive me, I must be going now."

I said without looking at the person I bashed into, their arms felt so familiar, they gently held my arm, I felt their concerning eyes on me even when I couldn't see them.

"Taylor..is that you?....Are you okay?"

It hit me suddenly when I was in the middle of my focus to breath properly. That thick British accent, that comforting hold...Harry.  Harry still cares about me even when he was every right not too, I guess you could say we gained a friendship out of the relationship that ended suddenly. 

I looked up at him and with in an instant let everything come crashing down, his eyes were so green they triggered even more tears..oh how I miss his voice and green eyes.

"hey hey hey..it's okay..come here."

He whispered while pulling me into his arms, he wrapped me tightly, his scent brought back memories, I cried into his shoulder while mumbling; "He's gone...he's not the same Adam anymore.." I let out with a abundance of tears.

He stroked my head while his other hand wrapped around my waist in a guarding way.

"It's okay, I'm here now...you're going to be okay now..shhh"

Somehow he managed to make me feel the smallest bit of happiness, it doesn't matter how small it was because it's the only shred of happiness I've encountered in the past week. While being wrapped up in his arms I realise something, I've tried my hardest to push away, we never argued like Adam and I did, he never disappeared into thin air without calling or anything. In fact Harry called almost every minute of the day when he wasn't with me he'd always it was because 'I wanted to hear your voice, you're so far away'. How and why we ended it still a complete mystery to me. But one thing that's come back to me now is that I miss him. I miss him so much more now than ever.

 I don't know what's real anymore, every time I let someone in I end up loosing them. 

Is that how miserable my life is?

A/N

I just read through this chapter and realised it's hardly substantial. I hope you can forgive me for this chapter and accept it in, thinking of better, more improved, pieces in the future. Yay for crappy chapter..

but...8.8K GUYYYYSSSSSSSS

YOU ARE BLOWING MY MIND, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!

Tell me what you think of this book and feel free to leave me suggestions or ideas, if I use your suggestion, of course I will ask for permission first, I will credit you.

Until next time my fellow swifties!