Hold on, don't you let go. (Tayvin/Talvin)

NEW BOOK PUBLISHED ON MY ACCOUNT!!

Okay, so those of you who wanted on a sequel, I will get to it! I promise. Now that 'Hold on, Don't you let go' is finished I have a little extra room on my hands. I will start on it, I've almost finished writing this next book and that's when I'll start writing. But as for the next book....

I'M SO EXCITED!!!!! Here are little bits taken from the book. I hope you like it! 

The new book  is now published on my account, please let me know what you think. 

I sit up and rest my back against the head board. I run a hand through my curls, once Harry did that as well. My eyes dart around the room and rest on the journal beside me. Where I have been writing to Harry ever since he left. Every single day. I'll recount to him the events that Caleb gets up to and ask him to let Katrina know it's okay to move on. I'll tell him how unfair it is to be left without him, that's usually on bad days though. Surprisingly today I am not driven by grief and pain and am driven by the memory of his sparkling green eyes looking into mine, his accent calling my name, his kiss on my cheeks.

I run may hand over the other side of the bed. Cold and untouched for five years but when I press his pillow to my nose his scent is still strong. Part of me, the part of me that is much like Katrina, still hopes to wake up to see him on this side of the bed looking directly into my eyes and saying; 'I love you' That is why I could never let another man into my life, I could never feel comfortable sleeping in another mans arms, on Harry and I's bed, in a room that burns with sentimental pieces of him. It will only ever be right if Harry kisses me. That's the way it will stay.

Dear Harry,

Good morning my love. How are you? I hope you're doing well. Did you see Caleb and I this morning? He was asking about you. I still remember what you used to call him; 'Little Buddy' wasn't it? That's what I call him now. We're going to go visit you today. Hopefully Katrina will be up to coming with us. As you know it's usually just Caleb and I but today I want you to tell Katrina that she's loved and it's okay to let you go. I want that for her, Harry. I don't want to put her through pain anymore. I miss my baby girl. She's too young to go through this and I don't know how many times I've told you this isn't fair...but through your passing I've learned that life is viciously cruel to some people and nicer to others.

Sometimes when the sun rises above the ocean I think of how much you would have wanted to see it. I think of our dates on the beach and your smile at the bottom of the stairs in the morning. Harry, although this memories bring me great pain to remember them, I don't think I could live without them.

"Don't be afraid to open your heart and love someone, though it bears the pain of loss at this moment in time, it will bear the joy of gain as time passes by." You told me this. On your last day, when I kissed your lips and asked you to stay you smiled at told me to be brave. I felt your grip on my hand loosen and heard the heart monitor hit zero, I watched your eyes close in those seconds do you remember what I told you? I told you what you told me when you asked me to marry you. "You and me, together forever." I can still feel your strong arms around me sometimes and other times I feel so alone. When the kids are at school and I don't have work, I'll be cooking in the kitchen and remember how you used to wrap your arms around my waist from behind and nuzzle your head in the crook of my neck. I know you're not coming back but oh how I wish you would.

I love you, I miss you and I hope you are okay.

Love, Taylor.

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