Hold on, don't you let go. (Tayvin/Talvin)

∞ Infinity ∞

I feel an uneasy churning in my stomach, it goes around and around in intervals all throughout the day. So here we are walking around the mall, no idea why, but for some reason Karlie just wanted to go. I don't complain, I love spending time like this with them. Since we're all so busy we don't get much time together, so it nice. However lately I have been feeling the worst of jet lag which does not make any sense at all. I've gotten a lot more sleep than a normal person would. I figure that it may be my brain stressing itself about Adam. I'm over working myself and I need to stop. Karlie gasps at a dress on show and runs inside the store, Selena and I laugh while tagging along behind her. She grabs a coral number that has the sides cut out at her waist and the zipper stops above her butt. My eyes widen as Karlie steps out in the dress. My mouth drops open as I stare at her. "Woah..." I exclaim in awe of the dress. Karlie has always found a way to make everything suit her, it's quite easy to be envious of her. Especially right now where she seems to have her life all wonderfully figured out, she's happy. "It's amazing, right?" Karlie says softly admiring the soft silk in the mirror. "It's..beautiful Karlie...you look gorgeous." Selena must have gone off to find something for herself because when I look beside me she is not there. Karlie blushes and gives a thankful smile. Here comes the light headedness again. I feel dizzy on my own feet. What the heck is wrong with me? The air around me becomes too claustrophobic to breathe in as I look up at Karlie. "Karlie, I'm going to get some air." She nods with a worry on her face. "Sure, are you okay?" I nod. "Yeah. I'm just tried." She nods but not fully convinced. I don't feel myself. This is not me at all.

When I breathe the warm summer air, the tightness in my chest releases. I let out a sigh and sit down on the bench. I figure if it was the atmosphere in there that was making me dizzy that I should just stay out here. How's Adam doing? I ask myself although I know he's safe with Ed. I don't think the question is coming from worry, but rather curiosity. It obviously gets a hold of me because I find myself dialling Ed's number. However to my surprise he doesn't pick up. Instead his voicemail greets me. 'Hiya, you've reached Ed. I'm sorry I missed your call but I'll call you back soon.' This unusualness causes some anxiety to rise up in my veins. The feeling I get when something is just not right. It's probably nothing. I hear Karlie's heels clicking against the floor and a few bags ruffling against each other. I look up at her with a smile. "Ready to go?" She asks to which I nod and stand up ignoring the nausea and refusing to acknowledge it. Selena gets a call on our way back to the apartment. "Ed wants us to come to his house...for some unknown reason." She says bluntly in a tone that I know is not Selena's at all. "Okay." I reply with hastiness. I trust my friends. I trust my friends. I say to myself. I force my legs to move even though the headache is worsening by the thump of my feet against the ground. Look on the bright side Taylor, you'll see Adam at Ed's house. The shouting paparazzi didn't help my situation however I still manage to put a smile on my face all the way. Karlie knocks on Ed's door. It takes a while, but no-one answers. Karlie raises an eyebrow at me and Selena and we shrug our shoulders. She turns the knob and magically the doors opens. Only Ed would leave his door open. "This guy is absolutely crazy, leaves his door open for anyone to just waltz in.." I say and Selena laughs. His house is dark, all the curtains have been drawn and all the lights turned off. "Hello, is anybody in here?" Selena's voice echoes in the house. My eyes dart around to search for a switch. There near the couch. I pull my hand out to reach for it but Selena bumps into me. "Sorry..Tay. Didn't see you there." she apologises. "It's okay." I can't find Karlie, I don't know where she went. A loud crack goes off, the lights turn on and confetti sprinkles in the air. I jump at the sound when I open my eyes.

Everyone I have ever known in my life is here, wearing party hats, holding streamers, with the biggest smiles on their faces. However one face is missing, I'll find him later. People come up to me ad hug me for reasons I don't know why, however I don't decline their affection. Gigi hands me a glass of red wine and thank her and approach her and Cara in the corner eating some sort of dessert. "Hey guys!" I say to the group and hug the various that I didn't see when I first came in. I am about to take a sip of my wine when I see Ed standing on a chair, wearing a cow onesie. Thank goodness I didn't take a sip otherwise, it would have been a right mess. I can imagine Ed's onesie covered in red wine and his face looking at me while I crack up laughing. "GUYS!!!! Listen up." Everyone's attention is gathered to Ed standing in the middle of the room. A few people let out laughter when they see what he's wearing, but Ed doesn't care. He's Ed Sheeran. He continues. "So you all know why you're here, expect for two people..." He looks around the room, my eyes follow his until they settle on the face I've been wanting to see all day. Adam. "Calvin, Come over here mate. Taylor stand there." He points beside him. Cara takes my wine with a smirk. Please someone tell me what on earth is going on. I say in my thoughts looking around if anyone heard, but no-one. Unless one of my friends is a mind reader, which is creepy. "So Taylor! Happy six months."