Hold on, don't you let go. (Tayvin/Talvin)

The final goodbye

(Talvin chapter coming this weekend, as well as this one! :) 

Harry's Pov

Taylor left in the middle of the night. She went to go see Calvin. Calvin, the man who holds her heart and yet doesn't even know it. I thought she went out with me yesterday because she needed someone, someone more than a friend. For a a split second I let my self believe that but it's not true. I had my chance and I blew it, this is part of paying the price for letting her go; seeing her move on and there's nothing, absolutely nothing I can do about it.

The kind of pain I feel in my heart, is the kind of love that once painted vibrant colours all over my life, now my canvas is a million shades of grey. This is the decision I made and I have to live with it.

I was sitting on the couch watching the snow speckle down the window. It would sway in the wind for a second, then paste itself onto the thick glass separating my warm, heated room from the cold blizzard outside. Sometimes I feel like I'm living amongst a blizzard, metaphoric of course, because once I lived amongst a field of daisies and the sun always shined, but that was before and this is now...sad and alone.

My eyes darted around the room and rested on my laptop beside me. I sighed and picked it up, putting my password in as well. Not intending to, I clicked on a file that said 'Taylor' instantly I regret doing this, but half of me wants to see the happy smile on her face. I scrolled through an abundance of photos, her and I, kisses on the cheeks, selfies all these memories of a relationship I miss. But I came across a video file that I'd never seen before, so me being curious George,

(Who watched that show? I DID!!!! 'ITS CURIOUS GEORGE!' sorry, continue.) pressed on it.

A classical piano piece started playing, then a title came up; 'Taylor and Harry.'

I smiled, the music kept playing for a little while it played through pictures of us together. My smile never left my face as I touched the screen, part of me hoping it was real, but it wasn't.

The music stopped and a title appeared; 'Snow fun, with my man.xx'

Taylor must have done this when we were together and I just forgot about it.

Taylor appeared, but different than 12 hours ago, her hair was significantly longer and fell down her shoulders while a beanie was snug on her head. She was laughing and smiling while holding a ball of snow.

I recognised my voice behind the camera; 'Babe, do not throw that at me.'

She giggled and took the camera from me, It revealed my hair shorter as it folded nicely on top of my head. Small laughs escapes my lips as I try to come near her, my hand finds her wrist, that's holding the snow.

Harry: Baby, please...

She laughs and throws the snow in my face, My body freezes for a second before I start chasing her around in the snow. She screams while looking back at me, my fingers touch the screen locating her face. 'Not real.' I tell myself, but it doesn't stop a single tear falling down my face.

The video keeps going, I finally catch up to her and fall on top of her in the snow.

"Taylor, I'm always going to catch you."

She laughed and kissed my nose, struggling underneath me.

"You promise?"

She says in a quiet voice and I nod. "I promise."

Then I leaned in a kissed her lips, we whisper quiet words of 'I love you' before the camera shuts off and a black screen greets me. I take a deep breath and let the video sink into my skin it rests on the cover on my body invisible to everyone else, but me. I shut the laptop and forced myself on my weak feat shivering due to the cold weather. My paces steadied down the hallway and entered my room that was lit by the only sunlight of winter, as the heavy velvet curtains had been drawn back.

Inside my wardrobe are clothes of all sorts, jeans, jackets, shirts and ties. My eyes settle on a green coat, that I know very well, it belongs to her, it smells like her and she wore it on our first date. She doesn't know it's missing judging by the amount of coats she has literally in all the colours of the rainbow. I grip the soft material in my hands and close my eyes for a second imagining the last time she worse this; almost two years ago, when I had willed enough courage to ask her on a date.

'It's all over now, she's in love with somebody else.'

I say as I inhale her scent she left on this piece of clothing, one last time. I place it back on it's hanger safely and vowed to myself I'd give it back to her, but I'll never see it through, I know myself better than anyone else and I know that that coat will never make it back to her possession.

It's okay though, because it's a memory of a time where everything was right. I see the way he looks at her and how he holds her hand, because it's exactly the way I would do things once upon a fairytale. I admit it still hurts, but I'm willing to accept that she's happy and I'm not going to take that away from her.

I'm going to move on, someday, eventually I'll be okay and my thoughts won't consume her anymore, but for today, when I see her eyes sparkle at Calvin, I'll smile for memory's keep safe, for a life that I will never get to live, for what we had.

It was all worth it, it's all worth it now.

I wish I realised that sooner.

A/N

Okay, so I know this is a Talvin book and it is always going to be, but I felt the need to write this chapter because...I couldn't continue the book if, I myself was unsure of where Harry stood in the picture. I hope you like it, I will give you a Talvin chapter this weekend, to make up for this one though as this one is really boring. Sorry for that. 

Have a nice day, you amazing people.

Please don't ever forget that, You're wonderful to me and that I can never thank you enough.