Lizzy Ells is famous singer/youtuber. She had been friends with the sidemen for about 5 years until her and her boyfriend, harry , broke up which led her to move out of London and go to the USA. but things changed and she decided to come back after...
As soon as i got at talias place i started bawling my eyes out ever more. Tonight was supposed to be a perfect night , something to get my mind off from harry but no of course I couldn't enjoy one thing in my life. I take off my outfit and put on a pair of pjs and decide to raid talias whole kitchen for snacks. I feel like absolute shit because I let Harry and mines complicated relationship ruin the boys ten years. Maybe it was a mistake coming back into their lives , they all seemed so much better off without all this drama I brought along.
After rethinking my whole life and choices I go onto my phone and see it flooded with messages from talia and Freya all checking up on me. I decided not to reply back as I'll feel even worst and when talia eventually gets home she'll see me. I go onto instagram and scroll through my hashtag to try and interact with fans and see edits as that is my happy place. As im scrolling I come across an edit of me and perry and a flush of guilt rushes over me. Mine and perrys friendship ended over me deciding to go back to my old life , which I now regret, if I go back I'll have no one. It would be selfish of me to run back to her after everything. There is no escaping this mess. I read through the comments and see how many people thought I was at fault for the friendship ending because I was being selfish and going back to my old ways. I knew this but it still cut like a knife reading it from someone else , even if it's just a random person, they were still right I am a selfish person.
I turn my phone off and head to bed because I cannot take all of these emotions at once.
(SORRY ITS A SHORT ONE IM WORKING ON OTHER PARTS THAT WILL COME SOON)
