I Want to Forget

Chapter 12

Since October, when Toby came, I have wanted to be at school with him. Now I didn't want anything to do with school. I dreaded for Monday to come. Of all the things that could have happened, this was the worst, but I deserved it. I was going to do this to Jackie, and now that I know the feeling, I would never wish this dread on my worst enemy. This will be the last time I ever be a part of a plan of revenge.

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I slowly stepped off the bus, keeping my head down. It was now Monday and the first time I have seen any of my classmates or friends since the humiliation. I don't make eye contact with anyone, and make a beeline to my friends.

"Are you ok?" Rose immediately asks.

"No, I am so embrassed," I answer.

"Paris, Jackie is going to pay for what she did," Summer tells me.

"No, I don't want anymore revenge," I reply," Can we please just talk about something else?"

"Yeah sure, if that will make you happy," Lina replies patting me on the back. All of a sudden Bryce and John come up to me.

"Paris and Toby sitting in a tree," they sing," K-I-S-"

"Put I sock in it!" I interrupt. They laugh and walk away. I groan.

"I'm sorry Paris. This will all blow over soon," Kailah assures me.

"Really? When!" I blurt," In 2 years? When I graduate high school!"

"Uhh....yeah probably."

"Look, they are never going to let this go! They still make fun of Summer about liking Blake!" I explain.

"Umm actually about that," Summer confesses," I still like Blake."

"And when were you planning to tell me this?" I groan.

"I don't know," she shrugs.

"I'm just going to.....walk away." I wasn't mad about Summer still liking Blake(I honestly already kind of knew), but I just need to be alone for awhile. I was dreading 1st period. I sat next to Jackie and she is the last person I want to see. All well I had to face her eventually.

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I sit awkwardly next to Jackie. We don't speak, so I decided to be the bigger person.

"I'm sorry," I tell her.

"You better be," she snaps.

"Actually never mind! It wasn't even my fault that happened!"

"Oh yeah? You are the only person that knew I "liked" Kobe! How do you think he found out?"

"Ok, I did tell him and I made up all that stuff about you, but it's not what you think."

"Oh then how about you tell me?"

"Well I told him, and he believed me. Then I couldn't take it, I was so guilty. So I told him it was all a lie," I explain," But Kobe and Rose kept going with the plan of revenge-"

"Wait why did Kobe and Rose want to get revenge on me? I didn't do anything to them-err actually I didn't do anything to Kobe."

"Well they said how you are a manipulative and horrible person, and that I would be doing everyone a favor but......"

"But what!" She snaps.

"But I couldn't do it.......I backed out. I didn't care if they went through with it, actually I couldn't stop it. They said I wouldn't get blamed for any of it........well we both saw how that ended up. I ended up getting blamed for the whole thing and my crush knows I like him,"I explain," I bet he will never speak to me again. I ruined it, all because he said he loved you-"