I Want to Forget

Chapter 24

My birthday was sort a bust.  This year my birthday landed on Easter, March 27th.  Spring break was weird this year.  Instead of coming before Easter, the break came after.  Sometimes I wonder what our school's administration staff is smoking.   All well spring break wasn't amazing either.  All I did was watch Netflix and sleepover at Rose's house once.  Whatever, I guess I got some pretty good birthday presents.  I got some video games, new makeup, new clothes, and a couple gift cards.  Now it is April, and I only I have 2 months left in my freshmen year.  I kind of want this year to be over but then it will be summer and summer is really boring.  I haven't talked to Toby since the last day of school before spring break.  I wonder if he still has feelings for me?  It hasn't been that long since we kissed, but you never know with guys like him. 

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I arrive at school Monday morning.  It was a normal day.  I hiked to the top of the small hill my friend's usually hung out on.  There was a small crowd.  What was going on?  I climbed to the edge of the crowd and lightly pushed myself through the bodies.  I reach the middle and stop.  I gasp and my eyes widen.  Actually that's what I do on the inside.  On the outside my face is neutral and I don't make a sound.  I wouldn't want to give her benefit.  The two people who were causing such a commotion on our hill was Toby and Jackie....holding hands.  I have never been so hurt by anyone.  Toby has done some hurtful things, but never like this.  I confess my feelings and I let him be the first guy I have ever kissed and then her turns around and betrays me.  I smile at Toby, but inside I was crying.  I was crying so hard, harder than when I cried when Kobe left me.  The crowd starts to disperse and everyone gets back to doing their own thing.  I slowly back away from the "lovely" couple.  I walk quickly to the bathroom before my tears become real.  Once I reach the bathroom I lock the door, so no one can catch me.  Once I shut the door I collapse onto the ground.  My knees hit the gross bathroom tile.  I hold keep my hands on the surface of the door to keep myself from falling.  I cry.  Tears fall to the ground and become one with the slightly flooded floor.  I make those horrible sounds that people usually make when they cry.  My voice echoes in the bathroom.  Little did I know that there was someone listening to my cries inside the bathroom.

"Hello?" whispers a little voice. 

I stop making sounds just for a second ," H-hello?" I sniff.  The stall door unlocks and a large, short girl steps out.  Her hair was in braids and she wore an anime shirt.  Her glasses were taped in the middle and she had a black eye.

"Are you ok?" She asks.

"Does it look like I am ok?" I snap harshly.  The girl looks a little hurt," I'm sorry...I'm just having a horrible morning."

"Yeah...me too."  The girl steps closer to me and sits down one the damp floor. She opened her backpack and pulled out a tissue.  She offers it to me and I gratefully accept it.

"Thanks.." I wipe my tears and blow my nose.

"If you don't mind me asking...why are you in here?"

"I really don't feel like talking about it..."  The girl looks at me and squints her eyes. 

"Are you Paris Winston?"

"Yes.." I reply," How did you know that?"

"Well you are one of the most popular girls in the school."

"Really?"

She nods," Yeah... A lot of the girls try to dress like you," she explains," I tried to but some people made fun of me by saying I couldn't pull it off. I mean I know I'm fat, but they don't have to be rude about it."