[Blue Archive] Abydos' Suicidal Hopeful

Takanashi Hoshino EP.2

To go back home, I have to die.

Honestly, I was half-resigned to this fact.

With this halo over my head, I thought dying was impossible.

Logically, how could someone with a body like a Kivotos resident, who could barely get a scratch even from a direct bullet hit, die easily?

Growl

Yeah, I thought it was impossible.

"....Shit...."

That was until I rolled around in the middle of the desert for days, having eaten nothing.

Whoever brought me here had no consideration whatsoever, leaving me on some random roadside. I had no clue where to go to find Abydos High School, let alone a way to live normally in this desert without a home, money, or identity.

Growl

"Shut up...."

After days of homelessness without food or water, I started walking across the desert, hoping to find Abydos even now.

At least the Abydos kids might give me something to eat.

Of course, this was after I tried begging from those Helmet Gang guys and got royally rejected.

"Fucking bastards.... You could've given me a piece of bread...."

Some even attacked me, accusing me of being an Abydos student instead of just giving me food. My whole body aches now, thanks to them.

I think I get why those Arius kids keep saying "futile."

Anyway, I started walking across the desert, but is there ever a good reason to get stranded in a desert?

"Ah, shit."

No matter how much I walked, I couldn't reach Abydos High School. Before long, my stamina ran out, and I collapsed in the middle of the desert.

Growl

"Haah...."

I lay there, clutching my stomach, staring up at the sky, not even thinking of getting up.

"Damn, the sky is clear as hell...."

My heart, on the other hand, is cloudy with thunder.

Growl

"I'm hungry.... Seriously.... Why is this happening to me.... Ugh.... What did I do wrong?"

Thinking about my situation brings tears to my eyes.

Normally, I'd be waking up at home, eating with my parents, and heading to school. Now, I'm scrounging for scraps of food. But what hurts the most is that the longer I live, the further I am from returning to my normal life.

I'm just too young to accept this reality.

"Just.... Let me die like this...."

Come to think of it, no matter how tough Kivotos residents are, they're still living creatures who need energy. So, I would eventually die like this. Of course, the process would be excruciating, but it's better than living like this.

"How is this supposed to be a youth story...."

With those final thoughts of cursing this world, I closed my eyes.

"...."

But it seems this place won't even let me die.

"Haah.... Where the hell am I now...."

When I opened my eyes, instead of my home, I found myself in another unfamiliar place.

"You're awake?"

And the fundamental reason for my TS reincarnation in this world,

Takanashi Hoshino, was standing before me.

"This is truly futile."

That was my first meeting with Takanashi Hoshino.

*

Many things happened after that, but I eventually became a student at Abydos, leading to where I am now.

Oh, just because I became an Abydos student doesn't mean I've given up on that message's request or abandoned my desire to die. I still plan on dying if I can.

It's just that my goal shifted from simply repaying a small debt and dying however possible to finding a way to die in one shot.

Ironically, the reason my goal changed is also

"Sora-chan~"

her, Takanashi Hoshino. It's pretty funny.

"...Hoshino-san."

"Uhehe~ Call me 'Onee-san,' not Hoshino-san~"

"No."

Even though I've been TS'd, my pride won't let me call her "Onee-san."

"So, what were you doing here, Sora-chan?"

"...Looking at the sky."

'...Did she find out?'

I thought I'd been hiding it well lately, especially after getting the world's strongest revolver. Guess I let my guard down.

'I should've just done it in the middle of the desert like usual.'

The reason I'm looking for a way to die in one shot is

"Uhehe, really? Then what's this .44 Magnum doing here?"

so that I don't have to show her my suicide attempts anymore.

I quickly picked up the gun I had thrown on the ground and said,

"...It's a, a gift! I've received so much from you, Hoshino-san, so I thought I'd give you a good weapon in return...."

"Hmm~? Then why is blood coming from Sora-chan's head?"

"Eh?"

'Oh shit! It just hurt, and I thought it wouldn't even bleed because I was fine?!'

I hurriedly touched my head,

"Huh, what?"

but strangely, I felt no wound or blood.

"Uhehe, you really fell for that, huh?"

"...Damn."

Looks like I fell for a trap.

Hoshino's expressionless face is terrifying.

"....Would you believe me if I said I was just checking the gun's power?"

"Uhehe, nope."

"Haha, of course you wouldn't."

Looks like I'm getting locked up for a while.

"Can.... Can you let it slide just this once...."

"No."

"Whimper."