[Blue Archive] Abydos' Suicidal Hopeful

Suicide Seeker (2) EP.49

"Then... why are you trying to commit suicide...? If your theory is..."

"You think it's pointless? ...Maybe it is."

"But... not everyone accepts fate, right?"

If there are people who accept fate, there are also people who reject and try to defy it.

"Well, in my case, it's too late to give up."

"...Huh?"

"I told you before."

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"I'm a suicide seeker. I've always been crazy."

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"I'm crazy."

Connections here?

Hoshino, Nonomi, Shiroko, Serika, Ayane, and even Sensei,

They're all precious. That's an undeniable fact, and more importantly, I don't want to deny it myself.

But,

"Do you know what's the first thing I did when I came here? I tried to kill myself in the desert."

From the very beginning, I chose my hometown over Kivotos, and I've continued to force this choice upon myself without wavering.

"...Give up? ...Yeah, giving up would make things easier. At least more than now."

There may be inconveniences, but there's no such thing as not lacking in life.

"But you see..."

"If I give up everything here, what happens to all my efforts until now?"

The mental and physical pain I've endured from killing myself, the blood I've shed, all of it!

"Who's going to compensate me for that?"

"...No, even if there's no compensation, it doesn't matter. This is something I chose to do in the first place."

I don't regret my choice.

"...But... but, you know...?"

If I give up here...

"Then... why did I give Hoshino an unforgettable scar?"

"...."

What was it all for?

Why did I inflict such a wound on a young girl who, according to the original story, only had happy days ahead?

"...So, I have no intention of accepting fate."

So that my actions, which hurt her so much,

Won't be for nothing.

"....."

Yume couldn't say anything to my heartfelt words.

She just

"...I'm sorry."

Offered another sincere apology.

"...I know."

Disgustingly so.

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"Ah, enough, enough. Let's stop talking about this."

It feels wrong to talk about such gloomy things after finally resolving a major issue.