[Blue Archive] Abydos' Suicidal Hopeful

The Person I Shouldn't Be Found Out By Found Out EP.5

"Ugh...!"

My head hurts. Is it because I'm low on blood? No, before that...

"Why am I alive...?"

My last memory was definitely of my ruined wrists and the bathtub. I should be dead. But for some reason, I'm not. The sight of Hoshino's room in front of me proves it.

"...Could it be that Hoshino...?"

Considering I was naked just moments ago, and now I'm wearing Hoshino's clothes with bandages around my wrists, it's obvious who saved me.

I was saved by Hoshino again.

"...Fuck."

Honestly, it's fucking annoying. This isn't the first time, it's happened multiple times. But...

"...I don't have the right to be angry..."

Even if she interfered with my death, this is Hoshino's house, and trying to kill myself here is undeniably my fault.

"Haah... I must be crazy, thinking of killing myself at Hoshino's house..."

Even if I had actually died, once I came to my senses, anyone would know it's something I shouldn't have done...

"Seriously... how am I supposed to explain this..."

She won't believe any lies after seeing my wrists and the bathtub.

"...There's no other way. I have to be honest."

Tell her I want to die, so leave me alone.

Yeah, it's my fault. I gave in to a momentary temptation. It's my mistake.

So.

"W-wait, Ayane, c-calm down, there's an explanation!"

'Please, just don't run away...'

I understand her feelings. Seeing her face turn pale, like she might collapse any moment, I can understand how shocked she is, even if I don't want to.

But you see,

'If I get caught this time, I'm really screwed!'

I've only just managed to regain their trust, and a wrong move now will send me back to the old days. Back to being monitored 24/7!

Not only that, but Nonomi will make me go to therapy every day, and Shiroko will stick to me like glue.

I can't let that happen. I really can't.