[Blue Archive] Abydos' Suicidal Hopeful

It's Not the Strongest Who Survive, But the One Who Survives is Strong. EP.4

Shhhhhhh

Creak! Creak!

"...Okay, this should do it."

The method I was attempting was incredibly simple. A method anyone contemplating suicide would think of.

"Ughhh... It's warm..."

Cutting my wrist, getting into the bathtub, and bleeding to death.

"Warm water is the best..."

Even in a desert, a warm bath is still a warm bath.

"Come to think of it, is this the first time? Seeing me naked."

Honestly, since I'd turned into a girl, I thought I'd feel repulsed by someone seeing me naked.

"...."

But maybe because the body was so young, I didn't feel that way at all.

"...Let's just kill myself."

I averted my gaze and picked up the cutter knife I'd found in Hoshino's room, but that's where the problem started.

At the time, I was just trying something I'd seen in movies and comics, not knowing the exact mechanics. And because my body—not Kivotos' body, but mine—was tougher than I imagined...

Slice

"Ugh! That hurts... Damn... But why isn't it bleeding?"

It took a considerable amount of time to even make a scratch, and even then, it was more like a scar than a wound.

Eventually...

Slice

"Ugh!... G-good... It's bleeding..."

Never one to give up, I changed my plan from making one deep cut to making multiple cuts to induce excessive bleeding.

"T-this should be enough."

As a result, my arm looked like someone who had been self-harming for years, and the bathtub was completely dyed red.

Ding-dong!

"Ehehe~ I'm back, Sora-chan~"

Completely forgetting it was about time for Hoshino to return.

*

"...But Serika, didn't you say you were going to your part-time job?"

According to the original story, she should be working at the Shibaseki Ramen shop right now, so she shouldn't be back this quickly.

As I looked at Serika suspiciously, she avoided my gaze and said,

"Ah... T-that's, isn't dealing with the Helmet Gang outside more important right now?!"

"...Sigh... Fine."

Honestly, her actions were incredibly annoying, but dealing with the Helmet Gang was the priority. So, following Serika's lead, I followed her into the classroom where everyone was gathered. And I finally got to meet him.

The protagonist of this story, the saint who could save everyone.

Sensei.

"...Fuck."