[Blue Archive] Abydos' Suicidal Hopeful

Memory of That Day (2) EP.53

Cut out the scar. 

To make it as if the wounds were never there in the first place.

It's literally about removing small wounds with a big one.

But...

"Can I do it?"

It's not a question of mental strength. It's a question of whether it's physically possible or not.

My body is already tough, so these wounds were made over a long period of time.

To make such wounds invisible would require more time than it took to create them.

'It'll probably take at least a month...'

And the chances of getting caught would increase as well.

She always appeared at crucial moments as if she had some special ability.

"...But I still have to do it..."

It's a task with extreme difficulty, as it takes a long time and requires me to be careful not to get caught.

I don't want Shiroko and Nonomi to know about these things.

I want them to only see good things.

Life in Abydos is already difficult for them, so it would be hard for them to accept that their classmate is a self-harm addict.

If it were me, I would have transferred schools long ago.

So,

"It can't be helped, let's just do it...!"

Hoshino knowing about my wounds is enough.

And so, my grand plan, unknown to anyone else in Abydos, began that day.

*

"This should be enough preparation."

And the next day, after everyone had gone home,

unlike the others, I didn't go home and stayed alone in the sports equipment room.

"Whew..."

Along with a large container to hold something and numerous box cutters scattered nearby.

"Three hours a day should be enough, right?"

The plan I came up with was simple.

Carve my arm for three hours a day here.

Since my usual self-harm time is about an hour, if I work hard, I should be able to finish it within a month.

Of course, I'm not a doctor, and I'm doing this crudely, so I don't know if it will work, but

"This is self-harm in a way."

I decided to think of it as just doing what I always do.

"Then... Oof!"

Lastly, I pulled the container in front of me.

This is for collecting blood, prepared to easily handle the blood that flows when I carve my arm.

If I made this place a sea of ​​blood, the smell might remain even after cleaning.

"...Then."