[Blue Archive] Abydos' Suicidal Hopeful

XX Addiction EP.9

"....Yawn...."

It's been half a year since I was reincarnated into Kivotos as a girl.

Now, living in Hoshino's house feels completely natural.

Of course, that doesn't mean my daily life has changed much.

Rustle

"Ugh!"

Drip... Drip...

If anything, self-harm and suicide attempts have become a daily routine, and I feel anxious if I don't do it.

'Is this how people who can't quit smoking feel?'

Anyway, I've spent the last six months like this, but it's not like nothing happened.

Ever since I was caught self-harming by Nonomi and Shiroko, Hoshino and the others have been doing everything they can to stop me.

Honestly, I only feel sorry for them. They're going through so much trouble because of a guy like me.

But when I express these feelings, they just look like they're about to cry and try even harder, so I don't know what to do.

"It's too late anyway...."

Their effort and persistence are truly amazing. They haven't given up on me once in half a year, so it wouldn't be strange if my future self eventually gives in to their persuasion.

But even then, the day I give up on suicide won't come.

"It's too late to turn back now...."

"....Sora, are you really okay?"

"...I told you I am. More importantly, isn't that a truck, Shiroko?"

"...Yes. Drone deployment initiated."

At my signal, Shiroko launched a drone and fired a missile at the truck.

BOOOOOOM!!

A tremendous explosion followed, and the truck overturned. We immediately ran towards it.

"Cough, cough... What, what?! An explosion?! The truck exploded while driving?! Was it hit by a shell? Wh-where from?"

"Serika-chan confirmed! Found her!!"

"A-Ayane?!"

"I see her too! I found Serika crying!"

'...Damn, am I too late...'

I wanted to save her before she cried, but it seems it was impossible.

"What?! Our young lady was crying? Did she cry because she missed us? I didn't even know!"

"Ugh, ugh?! Shut up!! I wasn't crying, I wasn't crying!!"

'...I'm sorry, Serika.'

I apologized silently to Serika, who was being teased by everyone. Of course, that didn't stop them from teasing her.

"Liar! I saw you crying!"

"Don't cry, Serika-chan! We're here, we'll wipe away your tears-!"