[Blue Archive] Abydos' Suicidal Hopeful

Decision EP.55

"Sora-chan! Sora-chan!!"

'...Fuck...'

The situation after that was really chaotic.

I was taken to the hospital in an ambulance that arrived shortly after, and while receiving everyone's worried gazes, I was hospitalized with my hand wrapped in bandages in the blink of an eye.

And,

"...sob."

The hospital room where I was staying became a sea of tears.

At the time, I couldn't understand their actions.

I failed to kill myself, but it was just a small wound and it was already stitched up, so it was nothing, but

Hoshino was on her knees behind me, muttering "Again..." and crying... Shiroko and Nonomi were clinging to me and wouldn't let go.

I didn't even think of a good reaction, but I thought this was a bit too much.

...But what was even more absurd was,

'Why isn't anyone angry at me...?'

No one blamed me for my actions. It was 100% my fault, but

instead of scolding me, the room was filled with voices of regret for not being able to stop me.

"Even I thought about it when it got to that point."

"If this kind of thing happens again, am I just leaving indelible scars on the kids for no reason?"

They were kind-hearted people who cherished me so much even though we hadn't known each other for long, so it was clear that they would be hurt.

"It hurt... just imagining it... It felt like a knife was piercing my heart."

They were supposed to have small but happy memories without having to worry about me, so my heart ached at the thought of them getting hurt because of me.

"So I tried to give up. I was scared of killing myself anyway."

If I just gave up on suicide, everything would be solved.

"...."

"You look like you're wondering why I couldn't give up."

"Ah, no, I..."

Yume was flustered and tried to make excuses, but I smiled bitterly and answered her question.

"It's nothing special... I just... had a dream."

"...A dream?"

Yeah, a dream.

Just a dream. But a dream I wanted so much.

"A dream where I talked to my parents."

A very sweet dream.

"...I can't listen to this anymore..."

*

"...Ugh..."

How much time has passed since I fainted? I lost consciousness for an unknown reason, but it wasn't serious, so I was able to wake up safely. But...