[Blue Archive] Abydos' Suicidal Hopeful

Choice (2) EP.47

A month was too cruel for me, who had a limited lifespan.



".....Cough!"



My body couldn't help but die day by day.



To the point where I now needed intensive care at the hospital.



If there was one saving grace, it was that my mind was still intact, contrary to what that I thought.



Considering the excruciating headache I had that day, it was a miracle.



...However, it wasn't like there were no aftereffects.



Now... It's impossible to see the faces of the Countermeasures Committee, especially Hoshino.



It wasn't just vomiting like last time.



I heard this from Sensei too...



Apparently, the moment I see them, my memory completely blanks out.



And not only that, but I even attempt suicide on the spot...



Thanks to that, Serika, the only one who hadn't noticed, found out everything, including the fact that I had a limited time to live.



So, as much as I wanted to apologize in person...



"I've been banned from visits..."



Considering my condition, the hospital banned visits from the Countermeasures Committee.



"Isn't this... completely garbage..."



To inflict such a deep wound and not even be able to talk to them...



I guess I really am trash.



Then, you might think,



Why don't I just accept the fear?



As much as I wanted to accept it, I couldn't anymore.



No, it would be more accurate to say I've given up.



Because I realized, after remembering everything thanks to that thing that day, that accepting the fear wasn't a good choice.



Of course I could live.



I survived even in the future I saw that day.



But I couldn't do that just to save myself.



In the memory I saw that day, I, who had accepted the fear, killed everyone in the Countermeasures Committee.



So, I won't accept the fear.



That's why...



I have no choice but to gamble again this time.







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"It's been a while since I've been here..."



Before I knew it, I was in the middle of the desert.



"Indeed, you almost died here."



With the root of all evil, hovering beside me like a ghost.



"But why did you come to a place like this?"



"...There's nowhere else."



To make my life's biggest gamble,



But before that, I needed to clear up a few questions.



"...Can I ask a few questions before I die?"



"Huh? Hmm... Sure, I'll listen to your last words."



"...You were my other mystic, weren't you?"



Thanks to black suit's words and my memories returning, I realized.



If it looked like me and wanted to take over my body,



"That's right."



It could only be a mystic...



...But there's one question.



"Why exactly are you trying to take my body?"



It seems a bit different from simply wanting a physical form...



"...Are you seriously asking that?"



Then, the thing spoke with a look of disbelief.



"You keep trying to kill yourself."



"....What?"



"I am you. So if you die, I die too."



"Don't you think it's pitiful for me, who's only been alive for a year, to die?"



"Wouldn't it be better for me to use your body instead of you killing yourself?"



"Don't worry, you won't die. I'll just take your body."



"...You can't take it now?"



I'd been curious about that.



If she couldn't take my body now, there must be conditions.



"Yeah. To take your body, you have to be on the verge of death, but you still have some time left."



"Ah, but don't worry, it'll be soon."



"About... 30 minutes left, I think?"



"...So if I die, you can't take my body?"



"Hmm... right?"



"...Really? But is it okay to tell me that? What if I kill myself here?"



"Hahaha!!! There's no way you can die. You can't even clench your fist properly now."



"..."



Right, as it said, I couldn't even hold a small cutter knife properly now.



I didn't have the strength to bite my tongue, bang my head, nothing.



But,



"Do you know what a personal alarm is?"



I had enough strength to press a button.



"...What?"



"A personal alarm. The thing that makes a loud noise when you press the button."



"...Actually, I have one."



The one Hoshino herself personally brought,



A modified version that was several times louder than the original and had a function to contact Hoshino.



"Ah, you know about this, right? Our worrywart sis personally attached it."



"...Y-you don't mean...?"



"Maybe it's because you've only been alive for a year? You spilled everything, so I survived."



If she had kept it a secret until the end, I wouldn't have had time to think of this method.



"I'm warning you, you should cover your ears. It's going to be really loud."



Loud enough to wake up the thing deep underground.



"S-stop!"



"Do you think I'll stop? Maybe you don't know because you haven't been alive for long."







"Life is a real battle, dumbass."



With those words, I pressed the personal alarm.