[Blue Archive] Abydos' Suicidal Hopeful

...I Think I'm Going to Die.... EP.8

Strange.

It's so strange.

It's been months since I came here, and I've lost count of how many times I've tried to kill myself.

But I'm still alive.

"Why can't I die?"

Trying to bleed out from my wrists became a daily routine. Drowning, strangulation, immolation, falling, electrocution, I've tried it all, but failed every time.

Of course, some attempts failed simply because my body was too resilient.

But the rest were thwarted by Hoshino, Nonomi, or Shiroko at the last possible moment, preventing my death.

And I was so careful to act unnoticed.

Whenever I asked how they knew, they'd say they didn't. Just had a feeling they should check and happened to find me.

"Bullshit... how is that even possible?"

It's like...

This world is actively preventing me from dying.

"Man, that was good, Sensei!"

"It was delicious."

"Mhm. Thanks for the meal."

"...It was good..."

'Even though my stomach feels like it's turning inside out.'

Maybe ramen is just too much for me. My stomach feels awful after eating it.

Although, it's probably more Sensei's fault for pushing extra food on me, saying I needed to eat a lot to grow tall. Anyway, I should probably avoid ramen for a while.

"Get out! And don't come back! You're bad for business!"

"Ah, ahaha... See you tomorrow, Serika-chan."

"I hate you all! Just die already!"

"Ahaha, glad to see you're doing well."

"Let's go back, everyone."

And so, after having a meal at Shibaseki Ramen, we headed back to Abydos.

"...Hmm."

"Huh? What's wrong, Sora-chan? Stomach still upset?"

"...No, just thinking for a moment."

Well, my stomach does feel bad, but I just remembered something Serika said.

'Wait, isn't today the day Serika gets kidnapped?'

In the original story, Serika was kidnapped by the Helmet Gang tonight, just after we all had ramen together like today. So, following the original plot, Serika should be kidnapped tonight...

'...Should I stop it?'

I could stop it if I wanted to. Even if they came in a swarm, I could just take down the entire Helmet Gang. But if I do that, Sensei might not gain Serika's trust.

This part of the story is crucial for Sensei to earn her trust by rescuing her. If I intervene, she might never develop that faith in him...

In other words, it would be game over.