He texted me , again , today.
I mean , I saw the message today. He texted me yesterday , at 10 am , asking me to reply to his question:
"Do you hate me now for what I did to you...?"
When I saw that question, my heart skips a bit. I can't say "no" imediately even if I don't hate him and I never could hate him. But I replied :
"Why are you asking me?" I said.
he made a seen. He was online. This is the rest of what happened:
"- I asked you just to not blame myself. He said.
-Seriously...? No , tell me the real reason.
- I swear that's the real reason why!
- okay , okay , I hate you a little bit ...
-It's okay if you hate me a little bit , because everyone hate anyone a little bit I guess....
-Okay what you want??
-I said nothing before!! why you keep asking me that question?
-because , it was never you who come back after a fight . It was always me. so I'm feeling like if you want something.
- No , not at all."
After some time , He added:
" I blamed myself cuz I knew that it was a mistake for being with you , and after we broke up , I blamed myself cuz you gonna hate me , and I don't want you to hate me for something right I did"
...
I asked him :
" why did you think of that ...?"
"him" replied:
" I never wanted you to suffer because of me . "
so...... you never wanted me to suffer because of you , I guess..? so , do you still love me , or you never loved me at all.... I just want explanations ....
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Daily Thoughts
Poetryvent , venting , nothing much , just writing my daily thoughts about you. As long as I exist, you'll be loved.
