Daily Thoughts

Holding On

Even if nobody wanted you, I'll be always here for you.

Forever.

No matter If you've hurted me so much months ago.

But I'll be always loving you.

I don't know why, I still holding on people that I know they'll never come back again . You left me like nothing was, and without explanations, and I'm the only one hurted after all that shit. I can't imagine you moved on that easy. Acting like if we've never met.

You've been always on my mind. I know, we're in no contact. I can't text you or just tell you the things that are turning on my mind. My thoughts, my dreams, and even how my day was. All I'm allowed to do this time is to think about you and stalk you. 

"Either talking to you or not, it's the same for me now ".

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I still thinking about this sentence every night..

Because I still want to text you,

But when I remember that texting you won't change anything,

It broke my heart to pieces.

This is the time when contacting you is bad, but also the no-contact don't feel right...

And I have to go with this like nothing happened.

Or I'll be foolish....

I have to pretend like if I was fine.....

To not let him worry,

Even if he isn't worrying at all.....

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