Daily Thoughts

Why

One day, you decided to end with our relationship like nothing happened between us.

Even if you were everything for me.

Even if we were planning our future together.

Even if you wanted to stay with me for ever and after.

But you chose to broke all what was between us.

            I still ignore the real reason of the problem, but I still searching for the real explanations of all that. Like how Do a human can be cheerful , careful, lovely for a long period of time, and the day after, he just turn his back to you, like he never knew you, and just act like you never met, you never talked, and you never have been friends.

             Honestly, I miss our "friendship". I can't call it a relationship, because I was considering you more like my best friend than like my boyfriend.

             You were like a family for me, like a friend, a " Best friend " to be more clear. I've never expressed myself to someone else but you. Even my family didn't know what is turning in my mind. I was telling you about everything : how I was doing,  what was turning on my mind, how was my day day and my everything, and any new thing that happen in my life. Now, everytime something happen to me, I just lie down on my bed, hug my pillow and I whisper your name in tears. Sometimes I just cry and remember all the moments that we spent together, and other times I just read our old chat or the messages that I've transferred to my own inbox.

            I felt more myself when I was with you. Everytime something went right, or wrong, or even if I just hear a funny joke,you were the first person I wanted to talk about it.

           Yeah, you can say that I'm weak, crying about wrong people and everything, but I don't care. Nobody walk into our lives without any reason. I'll find the reason why he walked into mine, but not now.