Daily Thoughts

Maybe

 " - You know something? He asked.

   - What? I replied.

  - I don't care anymore. "

    That was some of the last words that he said to me. That he don't care anymore. But why? I can't understand how people can lose feelings for someone within 24 hours! One day you were my love, and the day after you became a stranger to me!

    I still remember all the beautiful time that we spent. 

     Like the day when everyone was in their classrooms, we were wandering alone in the courtyard, and the teachers were looking at us suspiciously. We were laughing out loud, and talking about everything. I think that everybody knew that day about our secret relationship. Even if I never wanted to told anybody about it. But at least that day was funny...

     And when you smiled at me from far and I wondered if you were looking at me or to the one who was behind me. I smiled to myself like an idiot and I just said " I think he really loves me..." .

    And when you forced me to touch your dog named " Rex " , even if I was scared of dogs. After that, you told me that "Rex"  was the strongest dog among the 3 other dogs that you bring near our highschool.

   And when you put " I Wanna Be Yours " a note on instagram and you wanted me to also put it on Note,, and You told me that you want to be mine, even if I couldn't , because I was dealing with an very old version of Instagram. But you weren't mad, and you told me "It's okay don't worry darling". Everytime he called me darling was exactly like if someone shot with a gun straight to my heart, but it was a beautiful feeling.

   And even the moments when your "neighbor "  tried to make me feel jealous and were talking to you all day long, and you were telling me to ignore her. But I couldn't and just keep laughing loudly with my bestfriend everytime that nasty girl tried to make me feel jealous.

  And when you sent me the picture of my enemy that were studying with you and you told me : " I've found the pic of your friend! 😂" It was 4:12 am, and we had school tommorow at 8 . But at least we stayed up all night, and the good thing about all that is that he was sending to me some voice messages, one of the special things that he never did to anybody. Like, he never even sent a voice message to his friend! So we can say that I was the first person hearing his voice messages.

  I can't believe that I can't live this moment again, and that I can't talk to you again. The only thing that I'm allowed to do is to stalk your instagram account, because it is private, and see the number of your followers and following increasing and decreasing.

    Maybe one day, just one day, we'll live this moments again.