Our Infinity (A Ross lynch fanfiction)

Was it all for nothing?

Emily's pov

I had barely any sleep last night due to constant cramping in my belly. Casey said it was all normal and could be early signs of labour. I tried to keep quiet so I didn't wake Ross. As soon as sunlight hit the window I got up. I was starving. I went downstairs to the kitchen. I quickly pulled out some plain lays chips and grabbed the chocolate sauce pouring it over the top and sitting on the barstool to eat it. Ross stumbled down after maybe ten minutes. He walked into the kitchen and I started cracking up laughing "I know my shirts hilarious right?" He asked me. He was wearing a shirt that said 'stop making stupid people famous'. I nodded and continued laughing. 

We went into the living area and turned the tv on to Disney channel. I felt a warm liquid run down my leg. I looked down thinking my water had broken but instead saw blood seeping through my pants and felt intense cramps in my belly. "uhm Ross" I said crying "what's wrong?" he asked looking over and quickly jumping up. "What is that? What's going on" he said running over to me. "We have to go now" I said. "shit" he said grabbing our hospital bag, we both headed out to his car. He dialed Casey's number on the way and she said she would meet us at the hospital. "I'll message the others when we get there since they're not up yet" Ross said driving faster "owwwwe" I cried "shh baby it's okay you're alright" he whispered rubbing my thigh, not caring about the blood on his hands. "Faster please" I yelled, he drove a little bit faster. After a painful fifteen minute car drive we were here.Ross carried me in along with the bag and quickly told the lady. She brought out a wheelchair and took me to the labour and delivery suite where Casey was standing. I was crying. It hurt so bad.

Ross helped me get into a gown so Casey could examine me. "Honey, it's okay, let me pop a monitor on and listen to baby" Casey said as I nodded and continued crying. She felt my belly and then started moving the monitor around to try and find the heartbeat. After five minutes of trying she said she would be back with an ultrasound machine. Soon she came back with a doctor who began the ultrasound. He pulled up the monitor and I saw an expression of sadness come across his face. I looked at him confused. He walked away and had a quick conversation with Casey. They came back and the doctor sat down at the edge of bed. "What's wrong" I yelled in pain demanding an answer "I'm really sorry guys, we are unable to find the baby's heartbeat" the doctor replied sympathetically. "what the hell do you mean" I yelled. I looked to Ross who had his head in his hands. "It means your baby has unfortunately passed away" Casey said as tears stung my eyes. I screamed again in pain, physically and emotionally. I could hear Ross sobbing from next to me. "You mean this was all for nothing" I said to myself. I screamed in pain again and grunted. Casey lifted the gown and stated the baby was coming. Ross wiped his face and came over, grabbing my hand. I looked away from him. Was this my fault? I thought. Casey told me to push down but I refused. Ross grabbed my face making me look in his eyes "push baby, come on" he muffled out, his voice cracking. I focused on him and began pushing down. Many pushes later, intense pain, screaming and crying I felt a wave of relief as the pain suddenly stopped.  "Sweetie I'm so sorry, do you want to hold him?"  She asked, tears flowed out of my eyes, I nodded and leaned into Ross's chest. She placed the little boy on my chest. He looked so peaceful. I just lost my baby. How did I not realize something was wrong. Casey walked away. I looked up at Ross who was smiling down at our little boy. Reece Ricky Lynch. "I'm so sorry" I said tears in my eyes as he shook his head "this is not your fault my girl" he said back, kissing my head as tears fell from my eyes. 

We were sitting there in silence. Just then the door opened and Rydel came into the room. "oh my, you had the baby?" She asked excitedly, a huge smile on her face. Ross shook his head at her as she came over confused. She looked over at my chest and down at Reece. "he's gone Del" I whispered to her. "No he's not, no he's not, why? Get a doctor. Somebody help" She screamed, crying. Her state escalated my emotions and I began sobbing loudly and holding my baby tighter. Riker and Stormie ran in grabbing Rydel and dragging he out. Then the room went silent, the only noise being mine and Ross's sobs. I handed Reece over to Ross who held him tightly and kissed his forehead. How could this happen to us? We did everything right. Casey walked back in a short while later. "Casey" I said softly as she walked over "is it my fault?" I asked as she quickly shook her head. "No sweetie, no these things, unfortunately, they just happen, it's no one's fault" she replied sympathetically as I nodded. I told her to let the others come in and hold the baby before the doctors took him. One by one everybody came in and gave us their condolences, holding back tears and trying to be strong. Rydel never came back. It had been around four hours now since I had given birth and Casey said it was time if we were ready. We all gave Reece one last kiss then watched her walk away with him. 

The others left the room after that. I stood up not even caring about the pain in my crotch, threw myself on the ground and broke down into my knees. I felt Ross's strong arms wrap around my body as I cried into his warm chest. "Shhh it's okay baby" he whispered, he was still crying. We just lost our baby boy. "I just want to go home" I said back, my voice breaking, he nodded. He told Riker. Casey came back in a few minutes later and looked at Ross and I in each others arms on the floor. I seen a tear fall down her eye but she quickly wiped it and walked over. "Em, they said you wanted to go home?" she asked as I nodded. "Okay I'll get the discharge paperwork ready" she said before walking out again. Soon she came back and handed me a form. She explained I could go home but made me aware to look out for irregular bleeding and that I would have to come back if I was concerned. Ross drove us home, his hand on my thigh. Just Ross and I in the car and deafening silence. Once we got home we walked past the quiet chatter in the living room where everyone was and went up into our room. We both just fell on the bed, I crawled over to him and laid on his chest. Again, no  talking. Quiet whimpers occasionally escaping from each of our mouths.

A/N

I'm so so sorry everyone. This one was extremely hard to write. Please if this has affected you don't hesitate to reach out. 

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