Ends With You (A Michael Clifford FanFic)

Chapter 53

Sarah's POV

They had revived me from my un-conciousness but I would have rather them leave me there, forever because Michael didn't know who I was. He didn't remember any of us. Not me, not ashton, not even Karen or daryl, Tom. He only knew what his name was, Michael Gordon clifford. He didn't even remember he was famous or that every girl in the world was crying their eyes out for him. But they knew nothing, they didn't know how deep Michael really was, how his eyes sparkled when he really laughed, a real Clifford laugh or how in the quiet moments how sweet he could really be. Only I did... me, Sarah Jane Bognar but I would never get to be Sarah Jane Clifford like I had dreamed of so many times.

The doctors were trying to calm us all down, but how could we? When the boy that was holding us all together had no idea who we are, and doesn't know that he should. They said they were going to "fix this" unless he magically got his memory back, nobody was going to fix him, or my now broken heart. How was I supposed to feel to when I'm about to loose it all.

The visiting hours were over, but they let 3 people stay, so it was just me, Karen and Daryl in Michaels small little waiting room, waiting for something....anything. I was the only one left awake as I stared out the window, the rain drops streaking the glass, waiting for Michael to wake up. I knew deep down I would never get any sleep until he remembered, or I knew he was ok. When you love someone, you just hope that they are going to be okay, if he didn't remember me then I hoped he would be ok.

I got tired of sitting on the window sill so I cuddled up to Michael. If he would have been concious I wouldn't have done this, as to not freak him out. The doctors said he was drifting in and out of conciousness, and I needed to feel his strong arms around me again.

" Oh Michael... I never meant to say that I didn't need you." I said softly, as I pushed the hair away from his face. " That was the biggest mistake of my life.. and now you don't even remember who I am. I will never be able to take that back..." I hadn't admitted that to myself until now. I wouldn't be able to take what I said to Michael back, because he wouldn't remember, but I would I always would.

" Why are you crying?" he whispered. I jumped a little in his arms and slid off his bed.

" You wouldn't know." I said. " Or remember." I mumbled.

" What was that?" he asked.

"Nothing..."

" I'm sorry but what is your name again..?" he trailed off.

" Sarah." I sighed.

" Oh yeah, Sarah... that's a pretty name." he smiled and he did his little tug on his lip ring. That's how he always used to flirt with me, it was like he was trying to win me over....again. I turned towards the window and softly cried, so he wouldn't see.

" Who are you again...explain it to me again." he sounded like he really wanted to know.

" Well..as weird as this might sound.. I was your girlfriend." I said, walking back over to his bed and sitting next to him.

" We were inseperable and we really loved each other... we did almost everything together, you always used to take me on tour with you..because you are famous and refused to kiss any girl for music videos but me." I chuckled at the memorie of him fighting with director against kissing the girl from long way him video.

" You always used to be so sweet to me, you would randomly come back with flowers sometimes and when I was sick or didn't feel good.. you would sing me to sleep. When I wanted to watch my chick flicks and horrible movies in your point of view you would watch them with me anyway because you loved me." I began to cry again as I put my hands over my face to hide my tears. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder and pulled me closer.

" I know you probably think I'm crazy."

" No... I believe you, I just don't remember." he sighed.

" I know.." My mind wandered off as I lay in his arms and my mind wandered over to my more kid spirited side and I remembered the movie Snow White, how the prince kissed her and she magically woke up... woah wait back up the thought train. He kissed her..she woke up? That's when I got my idea, it was far fetched and totally ridiculous but I was going to try it anyway.

" Michael..can I try something?" I questioned.

" Um ok. What are you-

I cut him off with my lips. I tangled my hands in his hair and pulled him closer. He put his hands on the small of my back and slid me onto his lap. If he didn't remember I didn't want him to get to excited so I pulled away.

" Anything?" I asked, hopeful.

" No..." he sighed. I gently got off of him and turned to go back to the window.

" Wait.." he said, I froze. " Is your full name...Sarah...Jane...Bognar?" he asked, I could tell he was thinking hard.

" Yes!" I practically screamed, but remembered to keep it down.

" And...did I give you that necklace?" he pointed at the heart necklace.

" Oh my god... yeah you did!" I breathed.

" I remember some things... only about...you. You must have been really special to me." he said, tilting his head to the side and looking at me.

" Do you remember them?" I pointed to Karen and Daryl.

" No...not a bit." he said.

" That's ok you will!" I squealed, going over to hug him. " If you can remember that.. then boy you sure as hell can remember everything else!" I said, running over to my bag and digging through it.

" What are you looking for?"

" Pictures." I found my camera and photo album I took with me and ran back to his bedside, to work with him to remember.