Someone Else

Fourteen

Tinashe.

I was mad when Chris missed that visiting day, but I saw no point in arguing. Because I'm going to have to get used to him not being around. Also, I been so nervous to see him again because I will have to tell him and leave him one day. However, I still was embrassed and sad when he didn't turn up that day because I was just sitting there looking stupid. I waited until the end but he never showed. But he had to make sure Jhene was okay, I understand, a bit. It was real sad watching everyone be with their love one and I was just there, looking like depressed.

If I get into a fight I will have extra time, if I do that it may make Chris think about leaving me. He won't think that I'm trying to be good, he may get annoyed and just leave. That's what I need. I can't say to him I don't want to be with him because I would be lying, so I make him split up with me. I always thought me and Chris would be together forever. But I know how much having a family means to him. I want him to have his family.

I wish I could have kids. I remember when I was twenty one and Chris got me pregnant, I was scared to tell him for some reason. Everything was going perfect in our relationship. I didn't want to ruin it by saying I was pregnant. So, I kept it on a low for a month then went to the hospital just to be hundred percent sure I was pregnant before I told Chris. There was no way I was getting rid of my baby, I know Chris wouldn't want that either. Besides I wouldn't of mind having a family with Chris, his a perfect boyfriend and he will be a amazing Father. But none of that matters because when I went for a check up they said my baby died, they said my body isn't strong enough. If I did get pregnant again either the baby would die again or I would.

This whole year of our relationship has been bad because Chris kept asking me to have a family with him. All along he didn't know I couldn't. I didn't want to tell him because he might of left me. But now I think it's for the best, I can't be selfish, I have to let him find someone else what will give him what he wants. That's why I would always get angry when he talked about having a family, I was upset. I smoked and drink to forgot about not having kids... I can't put all the blame on that though, I also smoked and drink because I liked too, it relaxed me. I take full responsibility for my bad actions. Even Chris asking me to marry him made me upset too. Once you get married its kids next. Also, I always knew one day I would have to walk away. Marriage would just make it harder.

After five amazing years. Love, arguments, memories, disagreements, love making, drug dealing... All the good and the bad, I wouldn't change mine and Chris' relationship. He taught me how to love. I'm so thankful for having him in my life. It's time for him to find someone else, time for him to make new memories.

Breezy.

"You really didn't have to stay the night Chris." Jhene sighed.

"Just making sure you good. Besides I wanted to hang out with you. You wanna do something today?" I asked, biting into my toast after.

"You could start by vacuuming the floor, you making so much mess, get yourself a plate!" She laughed.

"Oops. My bad." I chuckled as I got a plate out from the cabinet.

"I'm free today but I'm busy tonight." Jhene replied to my earlier question.

"What you doing tonight? You got other friends we don't know about?" I asked in shock jokingly way.

"What I'm doing tonight don't concern you." She smirked.

She walked off out the kitchen and into the living room. I quickly finished up my food then put the plate in the sink.

"You better wash that plate Breezy!" She shouted.

"I did!" I shouted.

I turned around and started washing my plate. Then I dried it and put it away. Now I have done it... I walked out of the kitchen and into the living room to join Jhene.

"So, come on tell your nigga where you going tonight?" I asked sitting next to her.

"If you going to keep asking, I have a date."

I done a double take. I wasn't expecting that. Jhene beautiful and all but I never seen her talk to boys that ain't in the crew.

"Who you got a date with?" I asked surprised.

"Someone. Before you ask questions I won't be able to answer them until after the date."

"You could at least tell me his name." I bugged.

"I can't even do that... It's a blind date, Mia set me up."

"Oh." I chuckled. "That's the worst... Good luck though. Hope he a real one."

Jhene rolled her eyes and focused on the TV as she flicked through the channels. I remember mine and Tinashe's first dates. She used to make a nigga feel so nervous.

"You want to watch a movie with me or you going home?" Jhene asked as she kept her eyes on the tv.

"I ain't got nothin' to do. I'll chill with you."

I moved along and laid back onto the sofa. Jhene got comfy the other side. I still can't get over the fact Jhene got a date tonight. She like a little sister, just feels a bit weird.

Few weeks ago when I went to see Jhene in hospital and didn't see Tinashe. I was worried for the next weekend in case T was annoyed. But actually she understood, but I could see she was sad, but she said its because she's inside not because I missed one day.

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1) Y'all understand why Tinashe used to get mad when Chris asked for a family?

2) You think Chris & Tinashe should split up?

3) What you think about Jhene having a date?

4) Do you think it's weird that Chris thought Jhene having a date was weird?

VOTE & COMMENT PLEASE!!