Someone Else

Thirty Seven

Chris Brown.

"You know I could of taken you anywhere for the second date, somewhere special." I told Pia.

We was at her house, in blankets with take out food while we are watching Netflix. She was cuddled up in my chest, it felt different, good different.

"My house is special." She giggled. "It's the only time I ever get my house to myself. The girls are usually always in, I had to take this time. Besides, I like this, just spending time with you is good with me."

"You just wanted to Netflix and chill with me, if you want the D, you can just ask." I flirty joked.

She laughed cutely before speaking. "Maybe that's just what I want..."

I was taken back by her flirting back with me.

"You going have to work harder than that though." She challenged me.

I smirked lightly. "Oh, really?"

I travelled my hand down to her ass, pulling her up closer to me. She lend off my chest and started kissing my lips. Shit got even more intense than last time. Her hands where touching all over my body, mine where going crazy over hers too.

She moved away, breathing heavily. "Not yet."

Yeah, she teasing me hard, but I like it. I actually see things going somewhere with her so I don't want to force her into any sexual situations that she's not comfortable with.

"You so bad..." I breathed, catching my breath back too.

She smirked, giving me one more kiss before she went back into her earlier position, laying on my chest. I wrapped my arms back around her, just enjoying the movie. But my mind was in other places.

Tinashe.

"I can slowly feel the improvements, makes me feel proud." I let out a smile. "I thought me being by myself was going to be harder, being without, Chris. I thought I was going to go straight back to what I know. However, I feel I been so much more focused on trying to fix my broken heart in different ways."

I told the group, as we sat around in a circle. It's meeting week, where we talk about past, future and how we feel now. It's only been two months but in that time it feel like I have learnt and grown so much already, but I know I still have some more room for improvements. I feel like however confident and strong I feel in the future, I will always stay having weekly to monthly or even yearly check ups. Just to make sure I stay on the right track. Step by step I'm getting better, I'm not rushing it. I'm embracing my flaws and mistakes, and learning from them.

"You feel proud of yourself?" The main tutor asked in surprise.

These past few months of being here I have been really down, more depressed then I ever felt. Yes, I'm getting better, but with getting better you go down to your worse until you get to see the best. I have been hating on myself but now I can slowly feel the growth, I can honestly say I feel somewhat proud of myself.

"Yes, I do. I finally stopped avoiding all my problems. Growing up is scarey, having all these responsibilities on your shoulders, I always avoid them, I handed them over to, Chris... But I know how to control them now, I'm growing, slowly I'm getting there." I explained.

The group started clapping. Everyone is suffering with getting over drugs here. However, the main problem isn't the drugs it's the things which made us go to drugs. We are learning to cope with our problems head on.

My problems where mainly growing up, it scared me, it was just so much easier to forget about it and let Chris deal with it. Then when Chris asked me to do all these grown up things like have kids, have a family, it scared me even more. Then there's me not being able to have kids, I didn't tell anyone, I kept the pain and all that to myself. It just all built up over the years and got worse and worse. Then there's the non-existing relationship I had with my family, I didn't realise it bothered me or affected me until I came here.

"I'll see you lot next week at the same time, have a good night." The tutor smiled at us.

We all said bye then walked off to our separate rooms. I'm glad I stayed here, I needed time away from everything, just me.

I still have the days when I think of Chris. I wondered what his doing, how is he feeling? I just hope his happy. My last fear I need to achieve is going back home. Seeing everyone again, seeing Chris again, it's a scary thought. Will they like the different me? Will I be able to control my feelings towards Chris? All I know is that I'm not going back to my old ways. Onwards and upwards.

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Short chapter, very sorry! But major writers block for this, hope it wasn't too bad!

1) Pia & Chris, ship or sink?

2) What you think about Tinashe's POV?

3) You think T & Chris are over each other? You think feelings will be there still when they come back together?