Someone Else

Thirty Three

Tinashe.

This week has been so hard for me. Being without Chris for a whole week. I didn't realise how much I rely on him. I'm not grown or strong enough to be without him. But I can't be selfish when it comes to Chris, I want him to be happy, even if that means without me.

This week I nearly lost it all. Tyga said goodbye and left to go and live with a family for a bit. Donald took Jhene on a surprise vacation. Chris been doing his own thing, still checking up on me. No one is taking me in for a job. I still feel guilty about the non-existing relationship I had with my mom. I'm all alone, drowning in depression. I can't go back to drugs, so I'm doing what I should of done a while ago. But before I do I'm meeting up with Lucy, I want to know what happening with her.

I texted Lucy saying I'm on my way, then got in my car placing my suitcases into the back ofd the car then I drove off to the cafe I'm meeting her at. I pulled up to see Lucy was already waiting inside, I sighed and prepared myself for walking inside, meeting her at the table.

"Hey... L-" I just smiled without saying her name.

"It's Lucy, just Lauren to everyone else." Lucy laughed awkwardly.

"Let's not waste time then, explain." I sat back onto the seat, giving her my full attention.

"You not want to get a drink first?" Lucy tried to avoid the topic.

I just gave her a blank expression. I'm on a mission today, I have things to do, people to see, I'm not wasting any time with all the bullshit today.

"Right. Well, let's start with I went to prison for stealing peoples identity. That's how I made money, living off other peoples workings. But I swear I'm not on that anymore." She told me.

"How can I trust that? You gonna steal of Trey next? I know I ain't no angel so I can't sit here preaching. But how do I know you telling the truth? I have done bad things but I have always been one hundred." I admitted.

"I never lied before, I just didn't tell the truth, but I am now. Besides I took women identities, and for Trey I know his hundred percent all man." She hinted dirtly.

I rolled my eyes at her sexual mind. Trey's my brother I don't want to imagine that shit.

"Somehow I believe you. Don't go for my girl Jhene though." I let out a little laugh. "I think you should tell Trey though. Can't build a relationship of a lie."

She nodded in agreement. After that conversation I said my goodbyes to her and told her my plans. We hugged then I left, going to the next place, Trey's. While I was driving I rang Jhene. I don't have time to go to her apartment, so I'm going to say a quick see ya later over the phone.

"Oh, Tinashe, hey!" Jhene answered the phone in surprise.

"Hey, you free to talk?" I asked her nicely.

"Sure... What's up? You okay?" She asked in a concerned manner.

I let out a little laugh. Just funny how things change. Went from me thinking she going to steal my man to her being best friends with my boyfriend and friends with me.

"I'm fine, honestly. It's just I'm going away for a bit... To rehab actually." I told her honestly.

"Rehab?" She gasped. "Oh, really?"

"It's just Chris isn't here anymore, and I don't want to keep putting my stress on him anymore. So, I'm going to go and egg fully strong. Then come back and get my life together. I think I should of done this a long time ago." I explained.